Black Parade

I would like to dedicate this post to my schoolmate, Bridget Maureen.

She's a passerby during my schooling days. We exchange smiles occasionally in school but rarely talk or maybe even never.
But when I received the shocking news today, I was saddened by it.
When I attended her funeral with few of my friends, listening stories that her aunt share, I felt the pain.
It was then when I realized, it's not easy fighting for your life, you can only pray and thank God for another tomorrow.
The memories shared will always be remembered.
I'm glad she went through her favourite days (20th birthday and Christmas) with a smile.
Even though it's hard, but she made it through.
It's one of the most unexpected moment when God choose to bring you to His side.
I can only conclude that it's probably for the best.
I pray you'll rest in peace and reincarnate into a better person with a better life ahead.
I shamelessly say, I may not know you well in person but you'll be a friend whom I remember every now and then.

Amusing Eavesdropping Session

I was on the ferry this evening and I heard an amusing conversation between an Indian boy(approximately 6/7years old) with a Chinese auntie.
Please note that the conversation is in Hokkien.

Indian Boy: The toilet is full! T_T
Chinese Auntie: Then go to the other one, there's two right?
Indian Boy: It's the girl's toilet!
Chinese Auntie *laughs* really?
Indian Boy: Yes! I cannot go in. Do you think this is your house toilet? *in a joking manner*
Chinese Auntie: So, what's your surname?
Indian Boy: It's Huang
Chinese Auntie: *shocked* Huang?
Indian Boy: Yes. Huang as in yellow (he actually meant his surname is actually written like the chinese character 'yellow')
Chinese Auntie: Oh... So, what about your father? What is his surname?
Indian Boy: Huang la~
Chinese Auntie: Your father?
Indian Boy: Yes. Huang (emphasizing it as if the auntie sounded ridiculous)
Chinese Auntie: Oh...

So I walked off after that because I didn't want to get cramped in a sea of people when you want to get down through the escalator. So, based on the conversation, I can only assume that this Indian Boy is either adopted or he learnt Chinese since young. But based on his fluent Hokkien, I can only conclude that he's adopted (according to my perception).

I want to share this conversation is because I find it amusing that this child knows no boundaries in friendship/relationship. He didn't think he is much different from his father(who is a Chinese) when this auntie finds it shocking that this boy shares the same surname as his father, who thinks that the father of this boy is an Indian like him. I believe that children are easily nurtured when young to learn things and they learn things from observation and conversations. Parents play an essential role in their growth. This Indian boy may not know these cultural and skin colour differences because to him, we are Malaysian, One! But to an adult, we separate these differences and make it into a BIG issue! I find it rather childish for adults acting the way they are and ironically supporting the One Malaysia propaganda. I think it's time we look back onto these children and learn from them instead of arguing of matters like a CHILD.

Merry Christmas ^^V

Christmas Eve dinner at Sakae Sushi with Ailing & Jophy ^^


Us at S&J




Us in Starbucks ^^ doing a remake of ClaraC's nails ^^ ME LOVE~

Merry Christmas Everyone~ ^^V Ho Ho Ho~

Last Christmas

Will you be there when the first snow fall? Will you be there when I’m awake? Will you be there when we crude? Will you... still be there when I push you away?

The fact that I was too dependable on you, made me the girl I am today.

The girl who cried over little things hoping you’ll realized what you’d done. The girl who fuss over little things just to have reassurance. The girl who sulk over little things that you didn’t do. But I still thank you for the memories you left.

Last Christmas, I was sitting patiently at the dining table, waiting for you to come home for dinner. It was Christmas Eve! A tradition we had every Christmas. But as time slowly passes by, the tight grip on my heart gets tighter. I was worries and crushed at the same time. When you walked in, I rushed to the door, you smiled. “It’s cold” you shivered. I wondered if you notice how upset I was. But I guess not when you walked across me, threw the briefcase on the sofa and moved towards the dining table. Sat down and had your dinner like it was meant to be. Just like any other dinner in any other day. I sat opposite him, trying to keep my cool and asked “was it that busy in the office?”, he just nodded as he started stuffing his face. I forced a smile and said “Merry Christmas!” He ignored me as if he hadn’t heard a word I said. I place my fork and knife down and stormed off. Slamming the door as I walked into our room. You didn’t bother to check out what made me mad or apologize. Instead, you finished up your dinner and watched television after.

It’s the little things that I still cherished; it’s the things you find it meant to be. It’s the little hope I hold on to, is the hope you took for granted.

This Christmas, I am sitting patiently at the dining table as he serves my favourite cream spaghetti with bacon and poured a glass of our favourite 1990 red wine. I look dreamingly into his eyes, a slight pinch in my heart hoping he was you. He walk over to my side, held up my chin, meeting my eyes and said, “Merry Christmas, love” and kissed my forehead. Knowing I think of you occasionally when I space out but he hugged me tightly assuring me that he’s there for me, he’ll love me unconditionally. Just the way I like it. As the song sang, Last Christmas, I gave you my heart, But the very next day, you gave it away, This year to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special”

He’s the guy who I am sure will be the special someone. I still cry over little things, fuss over them and sulk over it but he’ll always put up with all that and turn that frown into a smile. “Merry Christmas to you too, love” I smiled.
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It's no good, but still... MERRY CHRISTMAS! ^^

Christmas Effort... S.U.C.C.E.S.S

Brownies Goodies~ ^_^


SoulMate cookies~

Christmas Effort... F.A.I.L

In the process (before baking)

cover line XD

looking "good" ^_^

oh Christmas Tree~ oh Christmas Tree~

Wong Fu Productions

Wong Fu Productions is actually an independent production company
Whose projects are available in YouTube
I love coming back in the weekends or end my BAD day with Wong Fu
because they always put a smile on my face
They make really good videos and had touching plots
which I absolutely love


Picture Day - JCPenney Back to School Breakout Performer Contest!

This is one of the video that I love and wants to share ^^

Hope you have a Wong Fu Weekend~

It's the end of the week
A Wong Fu Week
Wong Fu Weekends~ ^^V
(credits: Philip Wang & WFP)

Not So Private

I started writing blog hoping I can express myself better
Write about my feelings, me and my friends, and my love and hate
But I couldn't be writing something about my hate cause
It's not THAT private anymore
I love to know that people whom I care about knows how I feel
But at the time, it isn't that comfortable to write about people that I don't like
which I know they will be reading
I'm not afraid to be offensive because I'm only writing from my point of view
if you don't like it, you're free to click the 'x'
But I'm afraid of ruining what we had
I had changed my blog several time because of the privacy issue
Seriously if you're reading this, you would be thinking "WTF is she talking about? Don't have a blog if you DON'T want people to read it"

Very true I must say, but it's because I hate how my writing looks like
That's why I used the aWESomeness of technology

I've decided to not post anymore diary entries
But only post my fiction and random stats

First Week of Independence

Been having quite a week of freedom with my parents out of town *ha! been wanting to say that*
The bad thing about the whole week was I was LOCKED IN! T_T for 5 hours!
I had to skip morning classes that day and i think you all know what I did XD *previous post*
Went for the afternoon class and my class rep(Mr. New) *yes! his surname is very unique* promised to treat me Tiramisu from Dome! ^^
Me love him for that! XD guess it's true when they say "God will always open a window when for you when he closes the door"

'Nough of the sad part, now the HAPPY part!

Jajang! ^^
My classmates and I went for Tutti Frutti! It was aWESome! ^^
I really love it <3

After that, we had lunch at Strait Quay Mall! ^^
It was an awesome place! I really love the whole concept and scenery there!
Truly a fairy tale! <3

All ready for Christmas! ^^ Joy to the World!

We also had awesome lunch at Blue Reef! ^^
The wild mushroom soup was aWESome! The fish and chips was a little dry but I still love it! ^^ the chips was yums~ XD



I went to Starbucks on Wednesday to use the wifi access cause my aunt's place didn't have internet access
Was really stressed up that day and I guess I could say I'm annoyed somehow cause of the SLOW connection
Oh! I eavesdropped on 2korean ajusshi XD they were talking about someone's family and places in Penang XD HA! privilege of knowing bits and pieces of Koreans
Genie came over and we sat around before deciding to go for movie
We watched Rapunzel! ^^ but because the timing problem, we went for 3D
Bad news for those who wear glasses, BAD IDEA of watching 3D
My eyes were tired and I get dizzy watching it! and worst of all! the glasses is too big!
It doesn't fit nicely onto the back of my ears! =(

Still, I would sum up that I had a pretty good week ^^
Let's hope the weekend will be BETTER!
And the next week will be GREAT! ^^V

My First Vlog ^^

Hi! ^^ This is my first vlog! Firstly i would like to appologize for the not very clear quality I'm sorry about the messed ups I did too XD But still I hope you enjoy it

What I Want To Do When I have A Lover

The first, kissing him in the street
The second, catching the early train for Chooncheon with him
The third, going on a picnic with him
The fourth, the piggy back ride
The fifth, couple-ring is basic to our love
The sixth, I'll go to late night movies with you
The seventh, I'll go to amusement parks with you
The eighth, I'll hold a surprise event for you
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this is actually lyrics of a song that I personally love.
G.Na feat. Rain - What I Want To Do When I have A Lover

The Choice

As I stand at the entrance of the boarding hall looking at his broad shoulder that I longed to hug. Just to hold him tight and maybe he’ll realize it was all a mistake. But he knows for sure that he isn’t going to regret and walked in, without looking back. He never knew how much he changed my life, how much he changed me. And I hate him for that. How could he possibly just break the protective walls that I’d built over the years so easily, changed this girl into someone that others can barely recognize anymore and then just leave her like she didn’t mean anything? He choose career over love.

I was nine when I remembered I sat outside the boarding hall, hugging tightly onto my teddy bear, waiting for mum and dad to pick me up. But as I wait, and see more and more people come and go from the hall, I never saw them. I didn’t move like how they asked me not to and wait for them. I did. Until, I was so sure they weren’t coming back no more and I followed a big guy in his blue uniform, to some counter. Before I knew it, I was sent to a children’s home with other kids. Didn’t really talk much when I first arrived, because a little part of me still hoped that my parents would come take me home and not left me at some place where all abandoned children go. Yes! I said abandoned. The nun there, Sister Chrissy was worried, I had some kind of psychological problem because of my silence and I don’t smile. I guess I lost both when I start building the wall and didn’t want anyone to see right through me. I was afraid that when the moment I let someone in, they would leave me and go. It happens. My grandparents, my parents. But soon I realized, I was just as abandoned as they were but they chose to look on the brighter side.

I remained that way until I met him. He would visit the home once in a while with his parents and played with the children. He walked up to me and took my hand without asking, and took me to the playground to join in their game of hide and seek. I played with the other kids for the first time and I laughed at some silly joke he would tell about his friends at school. From that day, I would look forward to his visits. I started opening up to people and shared more of me with them. Of course I shared most of everything with him. I even shared my first kiss with him when he invited me to be his plus one for his school prom. We would go out on dates on random nights and when he came back towards the weekend from college.

I thought we were something else. Something better. But I was proved wrong again. We were eating ice cream when he broke the news. He chose to go University of London to realize his dream of writing. His passion for writing was never ending. He’d always read me stories that he wrote which were some inspired by us. The meaning of him going meant leaving me. I can see the excitement printed on his face and it made me wonder if he thought of me when he decided. I should have known better than to be committed to a guy who would never stay. At this age of 20.

And I looked again at his back at the entrance of the boarding hall, it took me back to my parents. Did they too chose their career and dream instead of love? Did they left it all including me just to realized their dream? So, did they make it happen after 11 years? Was it worth then? Is it worth now? They say when a girl falls in love, she gives him all of her heart and when they fall, she would always get her heart back as whole; but when a guy falls in love, he only gives half of his heart but when they fall, he would lose the other half of his heart all together. I know then that if a guy who placed me after his business, he will not be the guy who would love me like the phrase said and he’s not worth my tear and time. It was his choice to leave and it was my choice to leave it all in pieces.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1

Watched this twice! It wasn't that good but I have to say that it's the best Harry Potter movie I've seen after Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. I ALWAYS have something to complain about the other series because I've read the book and I ALWAYS think that the movie missed the best part of the novel.
Instead, I think the writer and producer made used of the best part of the novel and changed it into something hilarious or something better!
Which I would give a thumbs up to that. And I love the setting of this movie.
So many beautiful places that they went to shoot this.
I was quite disappointed at some point of the movie because I thought it was too short. I think the duel they had could be longer and more exciting. But I guess they need to keep it at 2hour plus movie so the audience don't get bored. Still thumb up!

I'm all pumped up for Part 2! because this is where ALL the real adventure starts!
And of course I'm most definitely waiting for after 16years later story!
Whoever who read the book would know what I mean ^^
And oh! I do have something to complain. Tom Felton didn't get enough parts in the movie! He barely had a 10min screen time!
But then again, his parts in the book, wasn't that much either, so *shrugs* I guess it's forgiven then.

My Love

cradits : via salalaouo

Medical School

Sending my cousin back to Aimst! ^^
I used to dream about becoming a doctor when I grow up. You know that essay we used to write in school about My Ambition. I used to think being a doctor was really easy but didn't know it cost that much of brain power. Guess my brain is not that fit for medical school XD
Niways, I still managed to make my way there! Super awesome experience!
I love the place! It's so clean and green! You can jog around the campus no problem!
My dream school! Like seriously! XD I wish the school in UK would be something like that so I can really submerged myself into real campus life.


My cousin's dormitory (guys only). There's 3rooms where each room is shared by 4person.
I must say, that place is CLEAN! No spec of dust on the floor or on their study table! And it's pretty cozy, not too warm.
Their bathroom is really clean too!
I forgotten to take photo of his room and the bathroom =p (the bathroom cause there are students occupying the place)

Had a really enjoyable time there. Too bad we didn't stayed long to explore the place.
Hope to go there again some other day. ^^

Kay Elle trip (part 2)

Upon reaching Double and Fenny's dorm ^_^ (spot fenny doing assignment at the back XD)



Us at Sanctuary (Ignore my fugly face)



Lunch Box and Rabooki from Street Cafe


the stuff I got from Ayu and Rue ^^


Rock candies that I bought as a souvenir

Kay Elle trip (part 1)

Mua will be in KL for the week, just for the sake of a holiday (avoid stress piling up by the time I enter seem 2)
Stayed with Double and Fenny at their cozy dorm. It's about a minute walk to the college! How awesome right?
Reached here around 3ish on Saturday, unpack and lenggang for a while, while they two are finishing up their assignments
Went out dinner with their housemate, Arthur and friends and suddenly it's decided that we go clubbing
My eyes were closing already when Double and Fenny are dressing up and putting on make ups XD I was carefree
5mins before they are done, I dressesed up and they help me by putting on mascara and eye liner
So, there goes my virginity of clubbing and my naked face XD
Oh, we went to Sanctuary btw, was ok, I guess. Crowded (normal) Loud music (normal) People drinking like no tomorrow (normal)
Drank for the first time(other than Shandy). It was black label + coke but it tasted like Dettol. Still no complaints cause at the end of the 'morning', I drank green tea and plain water
My feet were sore, my eyes are tired Lol! But got to admit had a pretty good time ^^
Oh, I accidentally hit a guy in the eye. Didn't do it in purpose! He was trying to bend down to talk to me and Arthur pulled me up to go in front and join Double and Fenny. So yeah... It happened XD Sorry!
before heading home, we went to Original Kayu for supper but I didn't had anything cause not hungry
Reached home around 5ish, bathed and hit the sack

The next day, met up with a friend I knew from BDM, Ayu for lunch
Had Korean food, ordered lunch box while Double and Ayu ordered rabooki.
Didn't finish my food cause was really full XD
Then we walked around for a while to Popular to get some stuff then for dessert! Yums! Baskin Robins!
After that, we went back ^^ was really tired. Upon reaching, Jensen called and asked if I'm free to go out tonight, so I agreed
He went to another KDU at SS13 and we were really confused about each other's location. Nevertheless, he reached
Didn't know where we were going at first but at the end went for rounds around SS2 area
Learned that there's Starbucks EVERYWHERE but no Coffee Bean XD sad case for him as a CB lover
Wanted to go to Murni but was packed! So went for tong sui instead. Ordered my favourite Mango Loh. Nothing special bout it, maybe I should have ordered those authentic chinese tong sui XD
Got lots of catching up and had good laughs. Oh! Found out that he's an egg tart person like me! xD
Returned home later on cause don't know where to head to. Thanks for the night out, 'boss'

On Monday, I spent the day waiting for Double and Fenny to come home.
Wasn't really feeling well cause it's the time of the month =(
Didn't had anything until dinner. Ate my fav fried rice (got too heaty, having sore throat now)
Their housemate wanted a drinking session but I didn't drink, just watching them go crazy
But I left early so I can get some shut eye cause my dark circle is crazily huge! XD *exaggerate*
On Tuesday, Rue came and gave me my Bonamana Ver.C CD! Smiling all the way for my handsome Kyu! ^^
Me got a poster and samples from 2PM's endorse New Skin(?) from her too. How cool is THAT?! XD

Wednesday, me went to 1Utama for lunch and movie.
Watched Revenge of the King Cobra. I practically shouted throughout the whole movie. >.<"
The shopaholics are uncontrollable. Till the last penny in their pocket also used up
While they are going crazy shopping, I sat aside and watched (I feel like a husband following my wife shopping for CNY clothes)
Fenny said anyone who marries me will be so blessed cause I don't spend a lot. ROFL!
And something unpleasant happened at the end (not gonna mention. you and I know)
Later that night, I spent my first Mid-Autumn Festival away from home but found lots of drama in Double and Fenny's class.
Come on, it's no crime to gossip. It's us(girls') expertise. XD

Thursday, ate pan mee for lunch. Loved the noodle's texture.
And I heard a really cute thing! A guy asked Fenny if his confession was good. Seriously, I love the way he did. XD
'Hi, can you give me 5minutes so that we get to know each other? If you don't mind, can we go out to lunch sometime?'
I practically smiled and 'awww...' at him! hahaha...
After that, I spend my whole afternoon at KDU's library reading Romeo and Juliet
Because my flu is driving me crazy, decided to go back but end up another hour in KDU's cafeteria. It's super NICE!
Despite being sick, we went for Claypot Chicken Rice. Yums!
After taking my meds, decided to sleep but they dragged me up from bed to play cards XD
Joined later by Arthur, playing 369. Feeling groggy, my brain processed really slow but had a good time nevertheless

FLYDAY! The day I'm going home! ^^ Went to 1Utama bus terminal alone and got myself brunch supplies from Subway
Ordered Breakfast strips & Eggs and Tuna & Eggs. Thumbs up to both! The white coffee(free) was really nice! my first coffee in 2weeks! XD
I spend my whole 4hour journey watching Dance Subaru and 10Promises to My Dog.
I'm really glad that I'm home. Not because I didn't love Kay Elle but I think it's always best to be home

School starts on Monday =.=" don't feel motivated and results coming out on my dad's birthday.
Hope it will be a double happiness then ^^

Till then. You'll heard it first from Serene XoXo

Dream Guy

'All summer, I've be sitting in front on Manet and reading Collet in the park hoping that a locked eyes who would be doing the same thing as me. And feeling the same feeling as I am' - Blair Waldorf (Gossip Girl Season 4)

I've been wondering the same thing! Sitting on the grass reading my favourite book with a great cup of coffee, waiting for a guy who would be doing the same thing approach me.

Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows

The saving-the-wizardry world still goes on. But I think this was pretty draggy. Cause I've read half of the book and still don't feel the excitement until the last 25% of it.
But it's worth the time, as books provides more detail and understanding.
One thing I love about books compared to movies, is they always hit the good spot of the readers.
Ron and Hermoine's kiss scene, Harry and Ginny's kiss scene, really cute 19years later scene, and all of those really cool passages in Hogwarts.
Come on! You don't get that with movies (ok, maybe you do, but not as much)
A great twist at the end of the whole story and a really heart warming ending.
Agree with me when I say, it was all cliche when you expect the hero to win but there's always a hidden epic behind all those.
I think the movie provided more details(?) since I saw one of the Death Eater stopping the Hogwarts Express in the trailer which the book did not mention (not gonna tell you why they did what they did)
And a lot of different scene which don't tell in the book
Probably just to make it exciting, as I said it wasn't that exciting in the first half of the book
And, less reading (for sure) cause the book wrote a lot about articles, books and stories which is for like almost 5pages long, which I'm pretty sure won't be read aloud that much
But I think it would be better because of the high end sceneries but I don't think it would be that great if they change a lot of the original story
Still, looking forward to watch it in the silver screen

-Favourite Quotes-
'Mum, I can't go into Herbology and give the professor love...' - James Potter
'It's me. I'm extremely famous' - Ron Weasley

^ but these quotes will only come in July 2011

The Book of Tomorrow by Cecila Ahern

You know how things are drawn in straight lines like it's meant to be, but when there's actually gaps in between what make things look crazy and out of place, it's what life is like.
Gaps that require patience, knowledge, understanding, forgiving, hate or love even. Maybe more.
But maybe these gaps can be filled by the mysterious diary from the travelling library that came from town.
Knowing things of tomorrow, changing things. But maybe, just maybe, that somethings are meant to be. Unchanged.

Unlike any other of Cecilia's books, it's less of a chit lit but more on pages that are waiting to be told and ready to be find out. Like a puzzle.
A blank board where pieces goes into place to get the real idea of the whole picture only after you put them right where they belong. In this case, it's reading to the last page of it.
You may think it's predictable like other books where there's 'happily ever after' or 'tragically ended', but it's not.
It's more like finding a new piece of information.
Like how she had written knowingly that minds are like buds just waiting to be nourished and grow, people who are open to all possibility.
Where as there's buds that are so wonderful but didn't have the tendency to bloom because the bits of pieces of information is what makes them who they are. Close minded and a know-it-all.
After Tamara Goodwin lost the flourished life in Dublin and being dragged literally into a small town where your neighbour is a few miles away from you.
Taking a city girl who have everything and gets everything she want in an instant, didn't think tomorrow is any more important. That life happens now.
That is, until the travelling library with the handsome librarian, Marcus arrive at the doorstep and offered adventures.
And in that place itself, she found her tomorrows. A thick leathered book with gold embroidery at the edge, locked with no keys.
But when all the secrets are out once the lock is mended, life doesn't seem at it is anymore to Tamara.
That she looked forward to tomorrow and questionable journeys and little spice of Sherlock Holmes to new discoveries that no one, not even the reader (of course unless you read it from the back) would find out.

Still, it's Cecilia Ahern. Times think she write modern fairy tales that sweeps every girl off her feet with. Not the one where the handsome prince coming to the poor girl's rescue and lived happily ever after. But where the bits and pieces of the real life of love and possibilities that could or will happen.
Agree with me that girls are suckers for books like that.
When I say fairy tale, she'd make sure Tamara have a good looking friend, Wesely.
Still searching the true meaning of love, and understand possibly in the future how love make people do crazy things.
But the focus of love was not on her, but on the characters in the story. She may have butterflies and silly smiles when Wesely or Marcus happen to come, but she's not the main.
She's the one who tells the story about the other characters and how she discovered the history of these people.
But can never question the love for her parents.
And, as I had said earlier, you must read till the end of the book to find out.
It is well, the book of tomorrow. If you don't go to tomorrow, you can't really find out what happen tomorrow, right? Make sense?

It's a less thicker book compare to Cecilia's other books but the content is never less short.
Reminiscence, thoughts, meanings and of course love; all filled in.
It didn't make me squeal like a little girl about romantic moments but it did make my heart squeeze a little and tear occasionally.
Life sucks but it never did promise to be good. So the up and downs is what makes a person he/she is.
Whether your mind is filled with colourful flowers of every kind or closed shy buds afraid of opening of to the world.
Tomorrow will always be better than today but if that doesn't happen, look forward to another tomorrow.
You'll never know when you'll lose your tomorrow. So make every tomorrow counts.

The diary always says I'll write again tomorrow

Doubt thou, the stars ...

by William Shakespeare (1564-1616)

Doubt that, the Stars are fire,
Doubt, that the Sun dont move:
Doubt Truth to be a Liar,
But never Doubt, I love.
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Will I go through a hundred miles to get to where he is?
Like how songs are written and sang
Will I go through a never ending journey just to look into his deep eyes?
Like how movies are written and portrayed
Will I be able to feel his soft hands on my cheek once again?
Like how memories are vital and flashing
Will I be able to be in his warm secure embrace?
Like how hearts are fluttered and do somersaults
Will I walk down the isle clad in a vintage dress after 50years?
Like how stories are told and appear
Will I find that man who gives me a love so true, so real, so passionate
To make me go through all of the adventures just to make sure he's mine once more

When I do find a man who breaks through the barrier while I stand at the balcony waiting
When I do find a man who isn't afraid of being in love and being loved by
When I do find a man who can make me feel like a never ending story I would write
He'll be the man that I'll go through a never ending journey just to be with him and look into his deep eyes
He'll be the man that I want to feel his hands on my cheek and my waist, never letting me go
He'll be that man that I will walk down the isle once more after 50years just to feel like a teenager in love once more
He'll be that Romeo I've been waiting for

Tanggal 31 bulan 8, 57!

31 Ogos 1957, tarikh yang saya pasti setiap warga Malaysia tidak akan lupa
pengorbanan askar-askar demi mempertahankan tanah air

Pada masa dahulu, 31 Ogos merupakan tarikh yang setiap warga Malaysia banggakan
kerana ia adalah tarikh Malaya mendapat kemerdekaan
dan pada 16 September Malaysia mendapat namanya
Sorakkan Tunku Abdul Rahman di podium 'Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!' masih bergelora di ingatan
Kata-kata yang menyentuh hati setiap hadirin di stadium ketika itu
Perasaan bangga dan terharu sebagai rakyat Malaysia

Tetapi kini, 31 Ogos bagaikan satu konspirasi yang ingin ditunjuk-tunjukkan kerana perpaduan kaum negara kita
Kerana perbezaan warna kulit, bahasa and budaya kita
Padahal, perbalahan tentang kewarganegaraan dan asal-usul orang cina dan india masih dipersoalkan
Tidakkah mereka berasa malu dengan perbuatan dan kata-kata kesat yang diluahkan?
Pihak kerajaan menyatakan bahawa jika terdapat penyataan buruk tentang kaum lain, tindakan tegas akan dijalankan
Tetapi adakah ia berguna?

Saya berpendapat bahawa yang patut dititikberatkan adalah keperibadian seseorang itu
Oleh sebab sikap prejudis inilah yang memecahbelahkan perpaduan kami
Jika ingin dibandingkan dengan America, bukankah negara mereka mempunyai lebih kaum, budaya dan bahasa?
Sekiranya begitu, apalah yang patut dibanggakan Malaysia?
Generasi muda kini, hanya melihatkan Hari Kebangsaan ini sebagai cuti sekolah yang dinanti-nantikan
Bagi generasi yang lepas, ia mungkin suatu hari yang harus diperingatkan

Hari Kebangsaan bukan sekadar memperingatkan jasa-jasa askar-askar wataniah yang mengadaikan nyawa mereka untuk negara kita
Tetapi juga adalah hari yang kita sebagai rakyat Malaysia harus mengenang kembali tindakan kita. Adakah wajar saya berfikiran demikian tentang kaum lain? Adakah patut saya membezakan diri saya dengan kaum lain?

Tidak. Di sini, saya anak Malaysia.

Selamat Hari Kebangsaan dan Hari Malaysia

Sekian

Late Birthday Wish

I forgot to make my birthday wish yesterday! T_T *smacks head*

So, my biggest wish is to get through degree with flying colours!
And by the end of all the suffering, I wish to go holiday with my BFF to South Korea!

I My Me Mine

Naega saeng-il eh yo! XD *it's my birthday*

First, I got my first birthday present this year from my sis. It's my most wanted FAME white/gold headphone! I'm lovin' it!
Opened it but haven't officially used it cause I want to wait till I finish my advance diploma then get a RED lappie to go with it! <3
Yesterday, I met up with Jinyi(Genie XD). We went to the Bread History Cafe for lunch! cause I wanted to =p
We're still awkward around each other but I think we made progress. At least I talk alot yo! XD
I kept asking him why he wanted to meet *evilgrin* then he asked for my bag and placed something in it
After paying the bill, we went back to Starbucks to meet up with Xiyen! ^^
Haha... As expected, my Xiyen won't betray me! XD he asked which is my car but Xiyen just told him it's white XD kekeke...
I opened my bag after he left and I found a really sweet present! XD
It's the one and only kind Starbucks tumbler just for me! XD he told me his fruit cake plan failed so... yeah... no cake XD


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Today, Mr.Maha's class was surprisingly bearable cause usually we'll whine about going back early and yawn but we didn't today Wohoo! XD
After class, went to get lunch with my friends at McD ^^
Once we reached Butterworth's jetty side, I went to meet up with Jinyi again cause he wanted to give me something
I was smiling from ear to ear when I saw what he gave! FRUIT CAKE!
Not just any cake, but a cake that he made it himself ^^
PhaikIm, Phoebe and Yeewen were checking out the cake and said it smelled really good
Seriously, it's nice! XD just too much cream... but hey, for a first timer, he's not too shabby



Qilly wrote me a oneshot AGAIN! <3 me just love her to bits~ thank you~

Had dinner with parents... The End XD
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I would like to thank Xiyen for accompanying me for the past two days! ^^
And, Happy advance Birthday to Vayshna, Qill and Rue! <3
Haha... the fact that 3 of my friends shares the same birthday, I feel lonely on my birthday XD still, I enjoy my day ^^
Thank you for making my day... Serene hearts every one of you *muacks*

Deeply Truly Madly

It's one of those days that I wanted to tell the whole world I'm in love... with my classmates! XD

Yesterday was a pretty awesome day to start off with. Late for class! how less awesome can that be? =p
We went driving round town to look for breakfast! Delicious Kaya-Butter toast!
Makes me miss half-boiled eggs for breakfast and crazily delicious iced coffee! *ok, now i'm starting to miss my coffee dates*
We started class early for our second session for discussion evading empty classroom XD
The best of it, WE FINISHED EARLY! LOL! I'm starting to sound like a bad student
After that, we headed to SEOUL GARDEN GURNEY! ^^ but before that, we attended to some business =X
Waiting for everyone to arrive, spotted this adorable cutie with her good looking brother... not to mention, TRENDY MAMA!
Sotong and I took photo with the sweetie! ^^
After everyone gathered, we went for our FEAST! really full!
but I'm always up for dessert XD corn ice cream! me and vayshna shared cause Sotong scooped it for us ^^
Phoebe and Cheah Yong ate MOUNTAINS! ok... so maybe not, but hell lot! XD
After everyone settled, we broke into 2groups by then, which made me feel not wanting to stay any longer
So, I asked Sotong whether we can leave earlier which we did
On the ride home was CRAZEE! we joked and laugh a lot! Looks like we're getting younger XD

Not much of writing this time ^^

I'm still vulnerable

Had probably one of the worst days today.
I got suspected for my work
She asked a number of times whether I was sure it was my work and not copied from the Internet
I was dumbfounded when she asked that
Never had it once crossed my mind that someone would suspect the originality of my work
To be honest, it hurt me even though I knew that nothing good will ever come out from her mouth
Still, I could not hide the dissapointment when she accused me
After my presentation, I cried my heart out in the washroom
I guess I did not know how to control my emotions well enough to hide the sadness
But I'm glad I have friends who cared ^^ thank you
For the comfort and words of encouragement
It's the littlest thought that made me smile today

Even after we graduated, I still seek for Fatimah when I want to pour my emotions out
Thank for being there for me ^^

Forget Me Now

I think I'm slowly forgetting about you now
and time to time, I even smile
when a bit more time passes and we meet again
I think I'll just be happy to see you

In such a sentimental feeling, I look through your pictures
One by one
perhaps because you're not like me
you'd still be hurt by me

* Forget me now
I feel foolish leaving you
you'd better not be happy

** Forget me now
Why is everything so black for me now?
I'm worried that you're happy without me
Still~

I still haven't been able to forget everything
Because I'm worrying over you
The memory of being left (the painful memory)
Is left behind in my heart and maybe you'll cry like me

* repeat

** repeat

Let there be lonely days only for me
my love is still in your heart somewhere
for the last time would you do it for me?
Please forget about me now

Forget me now, now everything
while I haven't forgotten about you, I'm trying to be happy
for me (So I can be happy)

Leave me now
my love, while we still feel love for each other
Leave so that it won't be any harder for us.
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A song by Gummy, Forget Me Now... it's a soundtrack from A Moment To Remember
I've been in love with this song for 2years! but I can't seem to find the title of this song because I heard it from a cover by Super Junior K.R.Y
Love it to bits!