Summary of 2012

2012 seemed like a hell of a ride. The ups and downs, the challenges and thrills and definitely, another test from God.

1) Meeting love's parents was nerves!! All butterflies... The exact emotions that I felt before sitting for an exam, the exact emotions that I felt when we first went on a date

2) Meeting YouTube stars that had brought me and love together! WONG FU 4 LYFE!! Not to mention me got hugs from two hotties, Philip Wang and Wesley Chan, though Ted Fu wasn't there, this gave me a good reason to go meet them again in their next Asia Tour! <3 p="p">
3) Getting into one of the biggest fight with love that left a deep ugly scar but I'm glad we both gave each other a second chance. Through this as well, I finally burst. I had never pour feelings into words before and after this, it made me so. Either I change from bad to worst or bad to good, you decide *wink*

4) Going to Singapore for a number of time! Finally got permission to go Singapore alone to meet love! He brought me to places and created memories that will forever be embedded in my heart.

5) Going to Perhentian Island with love and his friends. My first beach holiday!! I am no swimmer but had also wanted a beach holiday! Ironic right? But seriously couldn't care less because I got to go with love! Had my first snorkeling session with love guiding me in his 'home', the sea. Though he got ill during the trip, I'm still happy that I went with him.

6) Saying hello with the land of sexy accent, Britain! Was there for my 3months summer degree program. I am thankful for the opportunity given and the experience was beyond words. I've been lonely, never had trouble with it until I was in Sheffield. Probably the home sick part kicked in, I got miserable. I depended a lot on love because friends were busy with their own stuff. This experience taught me a lot and showed me who my real friends are. Vayshna and PhaikIm showered me with all the love they can give and I can never ask for more. When I was down, they were there for me. Met a bunch of new friends and for the first time, spent most of my time in the library! It was an awesome library experience because Malaysia uni, doesn't provide me so =( Slowly, the feeling of loneliness doesn't feel so bad after getting the hang of the place.

7) First birthday abroad! Without friends and family, it was dull. Having love singing me Happy Birthday, I cried because I really wished he was here and he was the only one who sang me birthday song that day. Then, receiving great love from Vayshna all the way from Penang, really made me teared. Was having a tough time and her card really cheered me up.

8) Exploring places I have never thought of going. Been to Lisbon, Barcelona, Santorini, Athens, Rome, Pisa, Venice, Zurich, Berlin, Paris and London., Got into a big fight with fellow backpackers and our relationship turned sour. I cannot say that it was a great holiday, but I can say it was a great experience. I still wish to go back to these beautiful places one day with love. Because nothing is ever enough.

9) Finding a job. Been on job hunting even from the start of my Europe trip. Landed on a job that I was skeptical about. But my friends and love have been encouraging me and I was happy to have landed on this job.

2012 had put a test on my relationship with friends and love, it was tough but I'm glad I made it through with family. I hope 2013 will bring me wisdom and more learning experience, to be a stronger individual and achieving more.

Thank you, 2012

너를 실망해서 미안 해요, 너를 상처해서 미안 해요, 내 사랑

Because our happy and good times keep passing me by,

Because I feel like I will regret this till I die,
I have something to tell you right now

I still love you, I love you
Though I don’t know anything else, I know I want you

My tears are not stopping
I know I shouldn’t cry already but why do I keep crying?
My heart toward you acts however it wants
So it keeps sending me to you

I still love you, I love you
Though I don’t know anything else, I know I want you

Missing You

I see you
The one person in my heart I see you, who I longed for so much
Even if the tip of my heart hurts like this
Even if the tip of my hands tremble like this I can only think of you
The person I miss like crazy
The words I want to hear from you like crazy I love you, I love you - where are you?
The person I long for, who is deeply stuck in my heart
Please tell me that you cherish me
Please don't blankly erase me
Because you're my everything
Those hands that softly touched me
That warm smile toward me
The love that made even tears so beautiful
My heart is still the same I love you... I love you

I've stopped looking for boyfriend material kind of guy

Cause I've found the husband material kind of guy

I sincerely hoped you are the one for me

Of Lochness, Kilt and Pipebag!

A long planned trip where my friends and I drove up to Scotland! 3 cars, 15 people, 8 hours (due to many toilet breaks). Took off around 7pm after class on a Thursday, packed with snacks and my baby pillow =P

First destination was to Edinburgh where we freshen up (just washing our face) and slept in our car for the night! We had a pit stop at Tesco Extra which was 24hours, did some food shopping, toilet break, washing up and of course, sleep! Yes! We slept there in our car for about 3 hours when we were abruptly woken up by police officers on patrol claiming that it's against the law to sleep not under a roof. Basically, we have 3 guys with their sleeping bags, sleeping on the tar road next to our cars cause their long legs don't allow comfortable sleeping in the car. But once we explained our situation, they understood and asked us to enjoy our trip. Now, that explains my post the other day doesn't it? *wink* We took a drive to town where we had our breakfast and normal tourist adrenaline where we took photos of everything and be fascinated with the kilt business everywhere we go! and no it's not cheap @_@

Edinburgh: Yes! I was there are Elephant House! Didn't get to dine in cause they couldn't serve 15 people at once and I was at Portobello Beach =D

After exploring Edinburgh for half a day, we continued our journey to Inverness, a small town where the city center is just a 5min walk away from our student hostel! We visit the famous Dewar's Whiskey factory where you can smell whiskey right when you open the car door. No joke! It was a great learning experience on how Dewar family developed their whiskey business and how whiskey was produced. We even got a free whiskey tasting session at the end of the tour! How aWESome! but of course, I didn't take much. Just a sip and my face was burning! but it's certainly nice =D had our tea break at the garden at Dewar's before we headed down.

 

Inverness: At some castle near our hostel =P and of course the famous Dewar's Whiskey Factory! That big bottle cost only 90pounds! Okay, let's be real, if we don't convert, it's pretty cheap don't you think?

Next, we were headed to Isle of Skye! It's nothing much but the view was simply breath-taking! Beautiful mountains, seas and animals of the nature along the way. Of course we paid Nessie a visit on our drive down =D This time, our hostel was located near the seaside! We were greeted by the sound of waves and wind upon arrival. Another pit stop to Tesco extra for our BBQ supplies that night. I love how BIG it is! You find so many things you couldn't in the tesco here! =( BOO! My friends cooked ABC soup and Apple Honey water for us to warm our body up before the BBQ! Had my first BBQ marshmallow! yummy to the max! I didn't enjoy the BBQ much as I was falling sick then, heaty body from lack of water and late night sleeps.

 Lochness: Paid a visit to Nessie at Lochness Lake... how can you not? =)

Isle of Skye: At Saucy Mary's Lodge... See the bridge? We crossed that to the island

 Isle of Skye: At the top of the hill, where I saw Aries, the ram =D and of course beautiful greens 

Last destination before we head back to our lovely Sheffield was Glassgow! A town with big buildings but not enough to be called a city. We caught a glimpse of double rainbow on our drive to Glassgow! I was so excited as I had not felt so close to a rainbow before and seeing it so clear and near to me! and it's a double rainbow! I could really feel leprechaun jingling their pot of gold at me *winks* It was rather late when we arrived Glassgow so we headed to yet another Tesco extra for dinner supplies. Had prepacked spaghetti! It was delicious! And I got bottle Starbucks coffee for only 1 pound each! Taste just as good as ones you get off the counter of Starbucks cafe. No lie. We went for sight seeing as usual the next morning where we visited town. It was a great learning experience at the Kevingrove Art Gallery. A lot of history and information at that gallery.

On the way to Glasgow: Did you spot the double rainbow? Beautiful isn't it? =)

Glasgow: A very warm and cozy hostel, it's a house made into a hotel... really home like; And meet Mr. Scottish Bear =)

And the best of this whole trip was MALAYSIAN FOOD!! We paid a visit to Rumours Kopitiam, it was splendid! The food was worth every cent we paid. I dare to say that it's even better than what I taste back in Penang! No joke! I ordered Indian style fried noodles, while others ordered Curry Mee, Char Hor Fun, Nasi Rendang Ayam, Claypot Tauhu with rice, Char Koay Teow, Salted fish fried rice, and Tai Lok Mien. Delicious beyond words! We really felt closer to home that day. I had iced YinYang and it tasted really good. Basically, I just enjoyed my food... We went for shopping session and off we go home!

We were greeted by the beautiful night view of Sheffield and shone by Mr.Moon who was shining brightly in the dark night, accompanied by shining stars. Beautiful.

Sheffield: See the beautiful night sky... Do you hear Jacob turning? Teehee...

An inside joke we had, was the car I was in was the ONLY car without a GPS but we are the car with iPhones and smartphones that had safely direct the way to 3 of the cities we've been to! How funny when the other 2 cars who had GPS couldn't find the way. All hail technology!

Jjang!! A little treat for you guys! Scottish men in Kilt! The guy on the right really aged with grace...

Till then,
Serene

Up and About

Hey guys! Sorry for the hiatus~ It's not that I've been busy but I've been LAZY! I've been going to places as you can see on my Facebook (didn't plan to upload them but my mum have been pestering dad to show her my photos but I didn't so now I did). So far, been to York, Whitby, Manchester, Liverpool, Leeds, Cheshire Oak(a designer outlet mall), and will be going to Cambridge this weekend! Since I'm not entitle to be a member of Cambridge University, taking a photo there and pretend that I am is already a thrill to me *muka tak tahu malu* The following weekend, my friends and I are driving up to Scotland! Yes, the land of Lochness and pipebag! If I'm lucky, I may get the chance to see her! Beautiful creature of the mystic times =D

 As much as I love being here, I still do miss home. A house is not a home. I realize this now. But I am thankful to my parents that I'm able to be here. Helping me get a degree and letting me explore the other part of the world. I enjoyed myself so much that I wish you are here with me (whoever that's reading this). I want to be able to share this beautiful place and experience with you. One of the best experience was to be part of the Olympics Torch Relay! 3hours or more wait was a kill but when the torch bearer jog by us, it's nothing but proud. Once in a lifetime opportunity.

My friends and I have been cooking together a lot these days. Almost every weekend, setting up themes on what to cook to represent home. So far, we had steamboat(awfully good for the chilly weather here), pan mee, tomyam bihun, and roasted pork! YES! We feel very much at 'home' with these food. The fact that I'm missing the dumpling and moon cake festival, I think about home a lot. Yes, these are the littlest things that I had took granted off. We crave for a lot of food here. Nasi lemak, roti canai, char koay teow, mamak food(Ali!), fish slice soup noodles and so on. Don't get me wrong. I do enjoy the fish and chips, kebabs and burgers here as these are real fish and burger patties (much less processed), but it will never taste like 'home'.

Scenery here are breath-taking. Green fields and farms and beautiful flowers everywhere! While you pay RM5 for a stalk of rose, I pick them up from the side walk. No joke. What seems like romance and luxury flowers back home, it's found every where by the road or in Tesco! There are roses and daisies at the court yard of my hostel. And, we can take a bus ride or 20min walk from here to get to the nearest farms! We see flocks of sheep, cows and horses! It's like a dream come true to me because I really want to meet a horse and when I did, I couldn't hide the joy! And as you can see from my photos, I met alpacas! They are really soft and fluffy! Took me a lot of trouble chasing them to get a decent photo so appreciate it! =P This is the beautiful life.

Though I may be surrounded by many people but I still feel alone. I miss you =(

Love from Sheffeld,
Serener

Because It's You

Because it's you... My heart flutter at the thought of you

Because it's you... I smile suddenly for no reason, then cry

Because it's you... I worry that you might get farther if I get closer

Because it's you... I keep getting scared because I love you

Because it's you... The person that I love

Because it’s all you, because it’s you that I miss... I love you

I keep getting greedy... I keep crying

It hurts so much, it's so hard but because it's you... I'm okay

Because its you... because it’s all you

Hello from the land of sexy accent

Arrived Sheffield safely after 16 hours of flight from Penang and 2hours bus ride from Manchester Airport Everyone was fascinated by little things like the architecture of the houses here, Mercedes/Jaguar/Volkswagen everywhere(!)and healthy looking cows, sheep and horses. Fell in love with my room the instant I opened the door... Small but cozy! Manage to unpack everything though it's a mess cause I would rather not put my things in high places =.="
 
 Scenery from the Bus Ride

 
 Before
 
After

Explored the town a bit and guess what! Starbucks is just 5min walk from my place! How cool! But no, I'm not interested in Starbucks here, rather get cheap coffee by the stand at the streets which only cost 1pound and taste just as good! Clothes and food here are rather the same price except for ice creams. Yes, even CHEESE is about the same price we get back home. The magnum here offer 3 for 1pound! Imagine how we are scammed back in Malaysia paying 1 for RM3.90! *curse you* Fruits are especially cheap =) Bought cherries, yogurt, milk and cereals, each cost 1pound or slightly more! I have yet to encounter food products for more than 2pounds
 
First Meal cooked by WeiWen (9/6/2012 - Lunch)
Second Meal cooked by Yours Truly (10/6/2012 - Lunch)

Breakfast - so far, everyday

One thing I love about Sheffield is you can find various departmental stores(like Parkson here) every few meters! And of course the brands you're familiar with like TopShop, H&M, Dorothy Perkins, Birkenstock etc. you can basically find it everywhere! There's also places like F.O.S which sells scarred items at a very cheap price. Found Ivanka Trump(Donald Trump's daughter)'s clothing line there for a great bargain of 30pounds for a trench coat! How awesome?! So far, I bought myself a dress from H&M at 12.99pounds but found out Primark sells even cheaper clothes! Especially for men! Anyone who wants something from me, please leave a comment on details of what you want and I'll try to see for bargains on those items. Sorry, I do not have much photos as you all know, I'm no fan of taking photos but will try to do more =D cheers!

 At the park =)

Eating ice cream in 17 degrees! Challenge accepted!

Me at Sheffield City Hall! (sorry for the tilted photo... lazy wanna edit ade) xD

Signing off from Sheffield, Opal 1. Serene~

The Road Taken

It's really hard to make a decision when you're too tired to hold on and too in love to let go... but I chose to stay so please make it worth

I love writing

Some people wonder why others prefer writing letters than just picking up the phone and talk. I love writing, not because I am good at it but because I can. I grew up being judge by people that I'm close to (family) because of the words that comes out of my mouth. So, I chose to remain silent and they said that I was rude. So tell me, how to speak more than write.

I had never let people know of how I really felt. I only tell parts of the story but never the whole. Even if I'm upset or angry, I chose to hide myself in the corner and cry out every thing that I had bottled up. Eventually building up a wall around me, barely letting anyone in.

I'd resorted to writing. I learnt to express more of myself through words I imprint on random papers and blogs. What I wrote, even if its just tangled lines, that was how I felt at that moment. People think that they know me so well that even if I don't talk, they'll be able to decipher me. But they'll never really know what's going in my head and how my heart felt. Only this little piece of paper knows. My dirty little secret. Even I'm scared of being too happy. For fear all those will be taken away from me, for fear it wouldn't last. All because I am afraid of being judge.

I'm really amazed by how people can carelessly talk without weighing the consequences when they do. But, who am I to judge them? Probably like me, talking is a way of expressing themselves. And this, is how I express myself. Writing.

Of unwritten past, unspoken words... This is me

A smile can hide so many pains, a tear can show so many feelings

http://tercesyraid.blogspot.com/2011/01/thinker_13.html

Is it weird?

Is it weird? For my stomach butterflies whenever we meet
Is it strange? For my heart flutters whenever we hug and kiss
Is it obvious? For he is the one I've been dreaming about

A guy who sings to the Sound of Music with me
A guy who cares for me far more than I imagined
A guy who can make me say things that I only think of
A guy who can make me cry by being so honest with me

Is it weird? To be in love with him...

사랑해

I love you, I love you,I love you no matter how many times say it
You... don’t know how I feel

I remember the first time I met you
I remember the first time we talked
I remember the first time we went out
I didn't know that I like you until that one night, I was crying and all I could think about was you
My heart that beats as if it’s about to explode, tells me that I like you, I love you
Even if I close both my eyes and cover both my ears, my heart can find the place where you are

My love... I love you

Of love, love and love

Went on my first event with love... WongFu Weekend!! Met Phil and Wes for the first time! =)
The best of it all, hugging them!! KYAA!!!! *nicegirlalert*
Got to know Sanna and her sisters! <3 though one of them wasn't much of a fan but after the WongFu 4 LYFE, managed to brainwash her into a nice girl! Power of WONG FU! =P Flew for the first time with love to Singapore =) had a blast! Love had been extremely nice and gave me all the attention I can get Been to malls after malls after malls! my life in Singapore is basically MALLS! The only money I spent most was on food and EZ Link card xD all the travel and yummy food But I had to flew back to KL earlier than planned for briefing at school >.<"
Before going back, I left post it(s) in his room =) was suppose to do it on his birthday but since I couldn't be there then, had it done earlier
Glad that he found the surprise I had installed for him =) a much smaller scaled than planned cause was rushing back so didn't get to do what I wanted to

A few days upon my return to Penang, love called and asked if I want to go over again, without doubts YES!
Flew a day after his birthday(Valentines) alone! My first time traveling 'abroad' alone... Just me, luggage and lots of love
Stayed a week or so with love, cousins and kitties! =D All I received from the whole week of stay was love, love and more love!
Love had been trying to finish work early so he can come home and accompany me for the night
Met his friends and Evelyn (finally!) during this trip and spent quality time together
I miss being in the his company and I guess it's true when people say distance makes the heart goes fonder
I can't wait to meet him again <3

One thing that I love bout Singapore is the aWESome bookstores and stationery shop! Penang must have more of these! And of course better public transportation =D Everything is within walking distance and travelling isn't much of a fuss with buses and trains!

Feeling bad though cause he had to miss golf with his colleagues/boss and left work earlier than usual for me
I think his bosses are glad that I'm finally back in the island xD