My love is finally home for good after being away from it for 4 years and more. We've been in LDR from the start thus, 'the wait' had been the only thing I knew. Waiting for him to come back home during any festive seasons and waiting for my trips to go over to Singapore just to be with him and waiting for the best lovable moment to happen. 'The wait' was everything for us. At least to me it is nothing more important than that.
The usual ring on my MSN for a video call, the ringtone to my former Sony Ericsson to my now newly iPhone ringtone, the ringtone of Viber that cannot be changed which gave me a slight irritation when it's not mine but others, those were the other kind of waits to keep him and I connected. Though words may fall short at times, but I missed and appreciate it nevertheless. I dear to hear his voice on the other side of the receiver. It made me smile. Especially when I'm having a bad day. His call was all I need to turn that frown upside down.
We had our good times and also the bad times. But through it all, it made both of us grow, at least it did to me. I cried and whined and I wished he was there to hold me close and tell me 'Everything is going to be ok between us'. I was heart broken and was at the end of the cliff but that pull of love brought me back into his loving arms. The lessons groomed me to be a better person, a better girlfriend, a better supporter, a better friend and a better listener. I cannot deny that I am still on the brink but I am taking on step at a time to walk away from insecurities and into the greater forgiveness and appreciation of his past.
Now that he's home, I wish that the assurance in me will grow and the doubt will lessen. I do not expect much from him, just knowing that he's there mentally for me, is more than enough.
I'm glad that he's home =)
