Best Memory of 2011

Meeting you is one of the best memory I could ever ask for in 2011. Right when I least expected it, you walked through the wall I built effortlessly. Spending 2011 with you, though in long distance, I'm always thankful that you always stayed by my side.

A very Merry Christmas to You

It's the time of the year again! To spread love and joy of giving! ^^
I love listening to Christmas songs, bring back lots of memories where my family be driving home from Penang every weekend listening to them in the car
I basically grew up listening to oldies and learn to love music and singing in the car

Last year, in November, I took the same photo and at the same place
Christmas was drawing near and my friends and I went to Straits Quay for lunch
This year is no exception... the same tree at the same place but with different people
Nevertheless, I love the people I'm with because they're always there when I needed them most, a shoulder I can cry on and to share the joy and love
Thank you, dearies... I'll always remember to thank God for another tomorrow and great family and friends, feeling blessed =D




The fact that Christmas is my all time favourite festive season, I decided to make a cover
Chestnut Roasting On A Open Fire, a song I fell in love the instant I heard it!
Do check out Jayesslee and David Choi's cover of this song! So much better than mine

It's more than just numbers

They say distance is just a number if you really love that special one
But I say distance is more than just a number when you really need that special one to hug and love you
Sometimes after a rough day, all you need is a hug from that special one
Sometimes after a happy day, all you need is a kiss from that special one
Sometimes even in random days, you just want that special one to be there to go through every day with you

But distance makes it so far-fetched

Distance is more than just a number when your heart yearns and your mind seeks

I'll take the plane at three in the afternoon just to be there where you are, my love

My timid little heart seeks for comfort and courage

There are so many things that I wish to tell you.
As I look into his eyes, so many thought was wondering in my head but will never bring myself to say it out.
He looked at me, asking me what’s going through my mind. My heart whispered ‘If only you knew, if only I have the courage to tell you’

There are so many things that I wish you would know.
As I hold him close to me, so many emotions were pouring into the hug but I will never have the courage to let you know.
For fear that you may think it’s a burden. For fear that you may think I’m childish. But I am a child in love, just that you’ll never know.

There are so many things that I wish you could see.
As I cry into my pillow late at night just because I miss you but will never let you see me like this.
The loneliness that I feel, the love that I have, is something you’ll never understand.

There's so many things I wish you knew... So many things I wish to tell... But never have the courage to let you know my heart

See me with a broken string, can I really tell you what I want?

My mind says NO but my heart yearns for you
My mind says NO but my heart seeks for you
So many things I wish you knew
So many things I wish to tell
For fear of being a burden
For fear of being clingy

그리워요 하지만 난 말할 수 없어요

내가 얼마나 더 그리워해야 그대 내맘 알 수 있나요
내가 얼마나 더 울고 울어야 눈물이 마를 수 있나요
그댈 사랑해서 아픈건가요
너무 사랑해서 벌받는 건가요
비록 내 모든걸 잃는다해도 그대 하나면 그거면 돼요
그댈 사랑하다 마음을 베어도
그댈 기다리다 가슴 다 헤져도
괜찮아요 사랑하니까
난 아파도 괜찮아요

There's no other way to say that I do love you baby, There's no other way to prove that I do love you baby

The longer you wait for something, the more you appreciate it when you get it
Because anything worth having is definitely worth waiting for
Baby, you're always worth the wait

Hello, stranger

I won't ever judge anyone. I don't know their stories & what's really going on. A smile can hide so many pains.

그리워 그리워

I miss you already even when we're together
Because I don't know when I'll be seeing you again

Timid

I'm afraid of being decipher
Scared to say what's on my mind yet sometimes too honest
Scared to say what my heart feels yet sometimes it slips
Scared of being too transparent in front of the person that I love yet already am

Perfectly Imperfect Love

Sharing this with all... as friends have been sending/tagging me on this photo
Something cute and filled with lots of love

Fairy Tale

When I was a little girl, I wished for a fairy tale. Where my prince in his shining armour comes by galloping his white horse, and lived happily ever after in the castle.

Now that I’ve grown up, I wished for an ordinary life. Where my prince in his plain t-shirt and jeans comes by driving his car, and wrapped me around his arms, showering me with sweet nothings.

In the middle of an ordinary life, love comes in and gives us a fairy tale. It was never about the horse and the castle, it is about the love and care that he gives that made everything seem like a fairy tale.

Wake up, feel the air that I'm breathin' I can't explain this feeling that I'm feelin' I won't go another day without you

I really wanted nothing more than for us to hold each other 'til our arms grew tired
In your arms, I feel so invulnerable yet so safe

The Big Eraser

I wished I have a big eraser to erase everything that hurt
I wished I have a big eraser to erase everything that had caused nothing but tears
I wished I have a big eraser to erase everything that cost me a broken heart

But if I do erase all those memories, I'll erase all those happy moments that goes with it as well
And when I do, I'll probably erase what is happening and may be what will happen as well
So, I can only live life as it is

I have learnt my lesson the hard way... Now it's time for me to change
Hold my hands tightly and walk through this transition with me, love
I cannot go on without you

My Habits

It had become a habit... Not having you around me
It's a habit that I neither like nor enjoy
Because I miss you lots... many may think that I'm crazy
when I say I miss the smell of your cologne when we hug
when I say I miss caressing my thumb when we hold hands just to assure myself that you're here... for real
when I say I miss peeking on you when you drive without you noticing

But it's a habit that I think made me stronger
Because I learn not to expect or anticipate... many may think I'm crazy
when I say he's not coming back
when I say he doesn't care
when I say he doesn't need to know
Not because I didn't want you to be part of it... but it's the only way to protect myself


You're a habit that I neither want to change or forget
Cause it feels so much more when we're finally together... once more

With you...

Sitting at the bus stop, I was waiting. Waiting for someone to come pick me up. Though many had offered, neither did I take up the offer. Vehicle of many kinds come and go. Some were average cars while some were saloon cars and others were high-end cars. As they come and go, promises were made, hopes were given, just waiting for me to take their hand and go on a journey with them.

Some people had to get into several cars before settling with one that they were comfortable with while some people had gotten into the right one from the start. When some people chose to cry in leather seat cars, others cry in cars that were nothing fancy but warm.

As I was still waiting at cross roads, a car stopped and offered a ride. It was an old but promising car. Though it was still unsure, I was as well. But instead of getting into another average car that had stopped for me too, I got into the one that made the impression. A simple black Saga. Unsure of where we are heading next, but we made several stops in between because of the doubts.

Though the car did not promise anything real materialistically, nor will it always be by my side, but it made me feel safe. As I caress it to assure myself that this is real, unknowingly, it made me smile silly every now and then.

I’m still unsure where we are heading, but knowing that we’re heading somewhere together, I couldn’t care less. Because I feel safe and warm, just by being in that car. It’s the perfect car that I had been wanting and wishing to have since I was a little girl. Don’t have to be a Mercedes or Bentley, just a simple Saga that can make me feel like I’m the luckiest girl around, is more than I had wished for. Thank you.

So, have you found your perfect car?

What and If...

What and If are two powerful words... What if... What if...

What if I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth?
What if my parents didn't have time for me when I was young?
What if I attended boarding school?
What if I enrolled in Modern Literature and Creative Writing in London?
What if I met people that are totally different?

I bet these are some questions you will ask yourself with the constant 'what if...'
The wishes and regrets that you'll come to ask and realize as you grow
Just because you want and believe you can do better if situations are different
But why ponder and frown on things you know you cannot change
The painful truth of the real reality and perceptual reality
The bittersweet life you live now, molds a stronger you to face bigger challenges in the future

More than just a pretty face

Finally got my first tattoo! Love it to bits! ❤
After being indecisive for half and hour or so, finally decided on a butterfly!

Been excited about this for the past month already!
Cause I really wanted to get inked but was skeptical about it
Now that I've done it... I'm all smiles! =D
No regrets!
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Got his initials inked as well =)

oh, before you all get too serious, it's an air brush tattoo! xD
so it's a temporary one... but still made me feel good!

XoXo
Serene

I wish I may I wish I might, have the wish I wish tonight ♥

A very delayed post cause couldn't get photos from the 'photographers' =P
Too lazy to write... so let the photos do the talking




Love the pressies they got me! especially the scrapbook! ♥
Saw photos that I don't even remember I had! Good old memories =)
and they got me something I've been delaying for 3years to get! contacts!
I have no idea when I'll be wearing them >.<"
Thank you me dearest sayangs for all the effort that had been put into these

Me love you all ♥
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Epic Conversation

XiYen: Moreen said dating is something very boring
Annshyen: SHUT UP!
Us: LOL!

Will you still be the man who I hold onto when my hands wrinkle? Will I still be the woman you love when you grow old?

Walking under the hot sun with only one umbrella in his hand, he shed it unto his partner. Slowly pacing through the long road as fast cars past, never letting go of each other’s hand. Grey hair, wrinkled hand, watching each step that they take.

Going on movie dates, watching movies made by youngsters these days, still the never ending excitement. As they held onto one another, the elderly woman rests her head on his shoulder. They enjoyed the movie.

Dining at the kopitiam near by their house, only the two of them. Feasting on 2 dishes and a bowl of soup, yet they chit-chat away happily. Enjoying each others’ company.

There’s no need to drive a car, live lavishly and feast on the finest when you are doing all that with the man you love. The wrinkled annoying old man that was once a handsome ambitious man you love. This is the lifetime of love you want to chase after.

As I finish this song I have one request that you be in my arms ❤

I wish for the same 3 wishes every year. I'm not sure if my 3 wishes are fulfilled every year but I'm sure that good things come to those who wait =)

This year is slightly different from any other years because something changed =)
I'm all smiles =D thank you for everything love ❤

I eat books and notes like they are cakes, blow exams away like they are candles.
But I'm already thinking about what to do for my holidays! @_@
First on my list, BOOK SHOPPING at Leos' and on the cruise! ♥
Second, air brush tattoo! Yes! you read correctly! I'm getting a tattoo! temporary one of course =P
Third, H.O.L.I.D.A.Y! Here we go, come with me~ there's a world out there that we should see~ *soul flies out* xD

The best of being 2ne1, will be growing up. Remember how we were once young and you just can't wait to grow up because the elders will always say 'you're still too young to understand'.
Now that you're legally at age, how does growing up feels? For me, I wish to turn back the hands of time and be a little kid once more. Where I dance and sing and let the simple life bring me along the journey.
No worries. So carefree.
Though so, I'm still under the caring arms of my parents being their little girl. Hugging my mum tightly when I just wanted a hug. No reasons why.
Having my dad plan everything when I'm still at the brink. Just because I was lost.
So, how does being 2ne1 change my life? Nothing =) It still feels the same but with bigger responsibilities and greater adventure.

No matter how crazy the roller coster ride takes me, I'm pretty sure there's always an open window at every close door. So, watch me take on the world!

Pre-Birthday Celebration! ♥

Been celebrating my birthday with M105(adv. dip.) for two years in a row!
And what makes it special is Vayshna and I are celebrating it together! ^^
We're only 1day apart from each other! *huggies*
I remembered last year where we celebrated the end of our Go-Green campaign with Miss Normah in Seoul Garden and we had ice cream instead of cake!
This year, we went to Sawara! ^^ still the same old faces and laughter but a little less merry =(
When we were in college, lecturers keep asking us whether it is a real cake! xD
YES! It is a REAL cake! Miss Cheng is so cute! She thought it was for some project
Me love the cake ^^ Vayshna said that it looked like a cloud filled with little goodies. Yesh! Me think so too!
Oh, I'll put on my cherry achievement in my next post =P
We had a great time and celebration ^^ thank you M105 for the memories. Love you! ♥






photo credits: Lee JoLyn, 2011 =p

I love you, ok? I worry about you, ok?

Wishing everyone Happy Chinese Valentines Day! =)
A cover of David Choi's By My Side dedicated to you all
and, me hope you like it!
Do check out David Choi's official music video of By My Side on Youtube =)



Happy 5months, love ❤

Something to tell my grandchildren about

Clinique Star Tour 2011, this is what I'm talking about
Vayshna randomly came to class one day and psycho us to join
The day came, and we were all doubting whether to join or not xD
Fickle minded right? But we did! =)
I'm glad I finally get to do something out of my comfort zone and the best of it all, with friends I love =)
Everything was fine until the photo shooting session... TOO AWKWARD!
Even the photographer said I'm too stiff =p
I didn't bother looking at the photos taken and trust my friends to choose the best one
This is by far, the most extreme thing I ever did!
Something to scribble on the papers of my life =)


Group pic! ^^ me love~

My Precious

Watching my step closely
Afraid of running
Sometimes I walked a little too fast
Unknowingly hurting people I care of

Lost hope in desperation
Too eager to chase after you
I fell into a deep hole I can't get out
In silence you gave me your hand

My lovely, my precious

My heart keeps beating
Butterflies in my stomach
Shy pervading when you whisper into my ear
Smiling like a fool

A new road you built
Little traces of memories we shared
I don't want it to dissapear
Our story still covered by mystery

My lovely, my precious

Did you hold on tight to my hands
Did I do good to keep you next to me
Did you hold me close to your heart
Tell me things I need to say so you won't leave

My precious


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The effect of too much Korean drama >.<
Rewrote the lyrics of Jang Geuk Suk's My Precious from Marry Me, Mary drama!

When it feels hard to breathe, when it feels difficult to hold on, Take a step back and smile

The pain in one's heart is difficult to heal but one can change its mindset
One needs to be sad in order to understand what others are feeling

- Aizawa, Code Blue (2011)

No Promises

There was never a promise life would be easy.
There was never a promise love would be blissful.
There was never a promise heart would not be broken.
There was never a promise you will remain mine.

Understanding everything that was stated.
Knowing everything that was obvious.
But learning everything from the start.

It is never easy.
It is never always blissful.
It will sometimes be broken.
A time where fear comes over, to the state of losing you.

Tell me things will be okay.
Tell me you love me.
Tell me you'll protect my fragile heart.
But can never tell me forever.

But maybe when time brings me through the learning process of life, love and feelings, just when I least expect it.
You'll turn out to be the one I am waiting for all along.

That's when I know for sure, you'll be mine.

2-in-1

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I got distracted from my journal readings =p
Did 2 covers~ Just because =)
Jesse McCartney's Tell Her and Marie Digby's Say It Again
Jesse McCartney is ❤ 'nuf said... changed the lyrics a little ^^
I love Marie Digby! and this song brings back sweet memories from WongFu's wedding video for their friends ❤

I hope you enjoy the videos and sorry if I suck *peace* ^^V

Never Leave You

Always close your eyes to see
You know what I am saying I love you always
Stretch out your hand so you can be reached
I'll be here always yours

I never leave you
I never leave you
Only one person in my heart filled with
I never leave you baby
I never leave you
My people it's a right
Right in my arms

Wanted to say I love you I love you.
Born into this world you'll meet

I never leave you ~

I never leave you
I never leave you
I'll love anyone as much as the coveted
I never leave you baby
I never leave you
The world enough to know everything
I'll love you



I don't need you to say much
I just need you to hold me close
Let me cry my heart out

I don't need you to do much
I just need you to be there
Let me know you're always here

I do I do miss you
I do I do love you
I do I do need you
I do I do thank you

For everything ❤

I want a library full of our stories, a ship to keep our memories afloat

Seeing how happy Caca is with Jesse makes me happy!
Seeing how excited Caca is bout meeting Jesse makes me jealous!

I want to fly over to Singapore and meet him
Then give him a big hug like I promised to
I want to fly over to Singapore and meet him
Then take photos of places that I've been to with him
I want to fly over to Singapore and meet him
Just to tell him how much I miss him

But I'm tied down with assignments and thesis to finish. Even during semester break!
This is brain torturing! T____T
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He mentioned about coming back to work and I asked him not to
I don't regret asking him not to because I know what Singapore can offer
Greater knowledge and experiences. Something I'm pretty sure you cannot get from Malaysia, what more Penang?!
And of course, the pay is another thing
From what he'd told me, I feel that Singapore appreciates what he does
And can offer him so much more
I will hate myself if he let that all go because of me.
Though I don't deny that I really want him to come back so we can spend more time together
But that will be very selfish of me, if I do.

I really hope he can find a job that he likes
Then it wouldn't feel so stressful just thinking about going to work
Maybe I'm too naive >.<"
Just want him to know, no matter what he decides to do
I'll always be there for him ❤

The Art in My Heart

I used to write fairy tales
Sweet love stories
Heartfelt stories
Like everything is meant to be

I used to write poems
Naive love poems
Crazy study poems
Like everything is just fun

I used to sing songs
Love songs
Heart breaking songs
Like these didn't mean anything

Now,
I can only write stories about the fearful reality
I can only write poems about the doubts
and I cannot only sing without feeling anything for it

100th Day

❤ 사랑은... *love is...*






counting the days to meet him once more




waiting for longing hugs =)



and sweet kisses =)



play pretend that you're here with me... always ❤




telling you how much I love you




sometimes too stubborn to admit that you're wrong *but he's always the one who puts up with me*




falling asleep thinking about you; waking up to you



just wanting you to be here when I needed you most



a love permit ❤

credits: HJ Story
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There is this Korean artist who is actually just compiling a collection cellphone photo SMS's he sent to his girlfriend who eventually became his wife! So Sweet rite?! I love the pictures he drew for her! So much LOVE!!!! So, I decide to share a few with y'all!

Today is our 100th Day! =)my heart swells with love and pride from loving you. I'm one lucky girl to have you with me. I'll be looking forward towards our 1000th, 10000th, 100000th, ... day! I love you!