They say a guy and a girl will never be just best friends.
I smiled awkwardly when he first introduced me to his girlfriend. Having the cup of coffee that I usually loved, today, seem a little bitter. Looking at the two of them cuddling one another, he was telling me how they met and ended up together. Trying to look attentive when I knew my soul had flew out of the cafe, wanting to tell him ‘I know how you two ended up together! I was there when you told me how pretty she was, how sweet she was, how nervous you were when you’re going to confess’ but instead, I kept everything inside and let him speak. After drinking finish my cup of coffee, I made up an excuse to leave. Don’t think I’ll be able to stand the love atmosphere in front of me before throwing up the cuppa I just had.
I didn’t remember when I’d fell in love with him but he had become a habit to me. Always there for me and me being there for him habit. I knew him as much as he knew about me. Except for my little crush for him. He didn’t know how much it hurt seeing him falling in love with another. I tried dating other guys but I could never open up to them as much as I did with him.
Ever since he started training to be a singer, an idol, the time we spend with each other become less. At the least expected time, I would find myself thinking about him and wondered if he thought about me as much as I did. Hoping that our friendship wouldn’t just end there, I text, call and try to suit his tight schedule to meet even if it’s late at night.
It seems so obvious to others about my crush. Everyone except him. My best friend, Ayu has a crush on his friend when we went out for picnic with the rest of his team members. He and I tried to bring the two together but they don’t seem to appreciate our effort.
At one random night, I received a call from him, asking to meet. It was three in the morning and drizzling outside. I quickly grab my jacket and brought an extra in case he forgot his like he always does. Got into a cab and was directed to the direction he gave. Sitting on a bench, his face buried in his hands, as water trickled from his wet hair. The sight of him broke my heart. I wanted to just go over him and hug him tight, telling him ‘You’ll be alright because you have me’, but I knew it forbids in our friendship. I lay the extra jacket on him and sat next to him. I place my hand on his shoulder as he spoke up. Apparently, his girlfriend broke up with him. Even though I felt the pain aching in my heart because of his sadness, I somehow felt a little joy because I knew he could have found someone better. Maybe it wouldn’t be me but as I knew him, that girl wasn’t his cup of coffee. Tried to cheer him up. He smiled a little and I replied it. He stoned for a moment, then moved closer to me and we kissed. Didn’t know how to response to it, I just smiled awkwardly and asked him to go back to the dorm before his manager found him missing.
A few months later, he confessed his feelings to me. I was sceptical but felt happy because he finally sees me. I was officially his girlfriend, not just a best friend. Despite his busy schedules, he calls and texts me whenever he could. It was enough to keep me smiling all day. The last time we met was on Christmas where we went ski boarding with Ayu and the boys. We had lots of fun with snow ball fights and that was the first time he told me he loves me.
He invited me and Ayu to go to their first fan meeting. We got the front row! We had light sticks and made placards to show our support. They were awesome. After the many years of hard training, they could finally stand on stage and show the people of Korea what Beast was made of. Talent. They even had 4Minute as their performing guest. Enjoying their performance as much, still waiting for the finale song, Good Man. It was a cover song that they had been practicing hard on. Once they were on stage, they sang beautifully.
As they end the song, he made an announcement. He said that the song was dedicated to all Beast fans and he personally dedicated it to me while Ayu’s crush for her. We were struck dumbfounded when he said that. We were then escorted to the stage by the guards in charge. He walked up to me and hugged me. I felt his steady breath on my hair and he kissed my hair. I hugged him back. No words could describe how I felt at that time. The secret diary I wrote when I thought about him, the wish and hope I had about him has come true. I feel blessed with love being in his arms.
They say a guy and a girl will never be just best friends. He isn’t my best friend anymore. He’s my boyfriend, Yoon Doo Joon.
