What I Want To Do When I have A Lover

The first, kissing him in the street
The second, catching the early train for Chooncheon with him
The third, going on a picnic with him
The fourth, the piggy back ride
The fifth, couple-ring is basic to our love
The sixth, I'll go to late night movies with you
The seventh, I'll go to amusement parks with you
The eighth, I'll hold a surprise event for you
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this is actually lyrics of a song that I personally love.
G.Na feat. Rain - What I Want To Do When I have A Lover

The Choice

As I stand at the entrance of the boarding hall looking at his broad shoulder that I longed to hug. Just to hold him tight and maybe he’ll realize it was all a mistake. But he knows for sure that he isn’t going to regret and walked in, without looking back. He never knew how much he changed my life, how much he changed me. And I hate him for that. How could he possibly just break the protective walls that I’d built over the years so easily, changed this girl into someone that others can barely recognize anymore and then just leave her like she didn’t mean anything? He choose career over love.

I was nine when I remembered I sat outside the boarding hall, hugging tightly onto my teddy bear, waiting for mum and dad to pick me up. But as I wait, and see more and more people come and go from the hall, I never saw them. I didn’t move like how they asked me not to and wait for them. I did. Until, I was so sure they weren’t coming back no more and I followed a big guy in his blue uniform, to some counter. Before I knew it, I was sent to a children’s home with other kids. Didn’t really talk much when I first arrived, because a little part of me still hoped that my parents would come take me home and not left me at some place where all abandoned children go. Yes! I said abandoned. The nun there, Sister Chrissy was worried, I had some kind of psychological problem because of my silence and I don’t smile. I guess I lost both when I start building the wall and didn’t want anyone to see right through me. I was afraid that when the moment I let someone in, they would leave me and go. It happens. My grandparents, my parents. But soon I realized, I was just as abandoned as they were but they chose to look on the brighter side.

I remained that way until I met him. He would visit the home once in a while with his parents and played with the children. He walked up to me and took my hand without asking, and took me to the playground to join in their game of hide and seek. I played with the other kids for the first time and I laughed at some silly joke he would tell about his friends at school. From that day, I would look forward to his visits. I started opening up to people and shared more of me with them. Of course I shared most of everything with him. I even shared my first kiss with him when he invited me to be his plus one for his school prom. We would go out on dates on random nights and when he came back towards the weekend from college.

I thought we were something else. Something better. But I was proved wrong again. We were eating ice cream when he broke the news. He chose to go University of London to realize his dream of writing. His passion for writing was never ending. He’d always read me stories that he wrote which were some inspired by us. The meaning of him going meant leaving me. I can see the excitement printed on his face and it made me wonder if he thought of me when he decided. I should have known better than to be committed to a guy who would never stay. At this age of 20.

And I looked again at his back at the entrance of the boarding hall, it took me back to my parents. Did they too chose their career and dream instead of love? Did they left it all including me just to realized their dream? So, did they make it happen after 11 years? Was it worth then? Is it worth now? They say when a girl falls in love, she gives him all of her heart and when they fall, she would always get her heart back as whole; but when a guy falls in love, he only gives half of his heart but when they fall, he would lose the other half of his heart all together. I know then that if a guy who placed me after his business, he will not be the guy who would love me like the phrase said and he’s not worth my tear and time. It was his choice to leave and it was my choice to leave it all in pieces.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1

Watched this twice! It wasn't that good but I have to say that it's the best Harry Potter movie I've seen after Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. I ALWAYS have something to complain about the other series because I've read the book and I ALWAYS think that the movie missed the best part of the novel.
Instead, I think the writer and producer made used of the best part of the novel and changed it into something hilarious or something better!
Which I would give a thumbs up to that. And I love the setting of this movie.
So many beautiful places that they went to shoot this.
I was quite disappointed at some point of the movie because I thought it was too short. I think the duel they had could be longer and more exciting. But I guess they need to keep it at 2hour plus movie so the audience don't get bored. Still thumb up!

I'm all pumped up for Part 2! because this is where ALL the real adventure starts!
And of course I'm most definitely waiting for after 16years later story!
Whoever who read the book would know what I mean ^^
And oh! I do have something to complain. Tom Felton didn't get enough parts in the movie! He barely had a 10min screen time!
But then again, his parts in the book, wasn't that much either, so *shrugs* I guess it's forgiven then.

My Love

cradits : via salalaouo

Medical School

Sending my cousin back to Aimst! ^^
I used to dream about becoming a doctor when I grow up. You know that essay we used to write in school about My Ambition. I used to think being a doctor was really easy but didn't know it cost that much of brain power. Guess my brain is not that fit for medical school XD
Niways, I still managed to make my way there! Super awesome experience!
I love the place! It's so clean and green! You can jog around the campus no problem!
My dream school! Like seriously! XD I wish the school in UK would be something like that so I can really submerged myself into real campus life.


My cousin's dormitory (guys only). There's 3rooms where each room is shared by 4person.
I must say, that place is CLEAN! No spec of dust on the floor or on their study table! And it's pretty cozy, not too warm.
Their bathroom is really clean too!
I forgotten to take photo of his room and the bathroom =p (the bathroom cause there are students occupying the place)

Had a really enjoyable time there. Too bad we didn't stayed long to explore the place.
Hope to go there again some other day. ^^

Kay Elle trip (part 2)

Upon reaching Double and Fenny's dorm ^_^ (spot fenny doing assignment at the back XD)



Us at Sanctuary (Ignore my fugly face)



Lunch Box and Rabooki from Street Cafe


the stuff I got from Ayu and Rue ^^


Rock candies that I bought as a souvenir

Kay Elle trip (part 1)

Mua will be in KL for the week, just for the sake of a holiday (avoid stress piling up by the time I enter seem 2)
Stayed with Double and Fenny at their cozy dorm. It's about a minute walk to the college! How awesome right?
Reached here around 3ish on Saturday, unpack and lenggang for a while, while they two are finishing up their assignments
Went out dinner with their housemate, Arthur and friends and suddenly it's decided that we go clubbing
My eyes were closing already when Double and Fenny are dressing up and putting on make ups XD I was carefree
5mins before they are done, I dressesed up and they help me by putting on mascara and eye liner
So, there goes my virginity of clubbing and my naked face XD
Oh, we went to Sanctuary btw, was ok, I guess. Crowded (normal) Loud music (normal) People drinking like no tomorrow (normal)
Drank for the first time(other than Shandy). It was black label + coke but it tasted like Dettol. Still no complaints cause at the end of the 'morning', I drank green tea and plain water
My feet were sore, my eyes are tired Lol! But got to admit had a pretty good time ^^
Oh, I accidentally hit a guy in the eye. Didn't do it in purpose! He was trying to bend down to talk to me and Arthur pulled me up to go in front and join Double and Fenny. So yeah... It happened XD Sorry!
before heading home, we went to Original Kayu for supper but I didn't had anything cause not hungry
Reached home around 5ish, bathed and hit the sack

The next day, met up with a friend I knew from BDM, Ayu for lunch
Had Korean food, ordered lunch box while Double and Ayu ordered rabooki.
Didn't finish my food cause was really full XD
Then we walked around for a while to Popular to get some stuff then for dessert! Yums! Baskin Robins!
After that, we went back ^^ was really tired. Upon reaching, Jensen called and asked if I'm free to go out tonight, so I agreed
He went to another KDU at SS13 and we were really confused about each other's location. Nevertheless, he reached
Didn't know where we were going at first but at the end went for rounds around SS2 area
Learned that there's Starbucks EVERYWHERE but no Coffee Bean XD sad case for him as a CB lover
Wanted to go to Murni but was packed! So went for tong sui instead. Ordered my favourite Mango Loh. Nothing special bout it, maybe I should have ordered those authentic chinese tong sui XD
Got lots of catching up and had good laughs. Oh! Found out that he's an egg tart person like me! xD
Returned home later on cause don't know where to head to. Thanks for the night out, 'boss'

On Monday, I spent the day waiting for Double and Fenny to come home.
Wasn't really feeling well cause it's the time of the month =(
Didn't had anything until dinner. Ate my fav fried rice (got too heaty, having sore throat now)
Their housemate wanted a drinking session but I didn't drink, just watching them go crazy
But I left early so I can get some shut eye cause my dark circle is crazily huge! XD *exaggerate*
On Tuesday, Rue came and gave me my Bonamana Ver.C CD! Smiling all the way for my handsome Kyu! ^^
Me got a poster and samples from 2PM's endorse New Skin(?) from her too. How cool is THAT?! XD

Wednesday, me went to 1Utama for lunch and movie.
Watched Revenge of the King Cobra. I practically shouted throughout the whole movie. >.<"
The shopaholics are uncontrollable. Till the last penny in their pocket also used up
While they are going crazy shopping, I sat aside and watched (I feel like a husband following my wife shopping for CNY clothes)
Fenny said anyone who marries me will be so blessed cause I don't spend a lot. ROFL!
And something unpleasant happened at the end (not gonna mention. you and I know)
Later that night, I spent my first Mid-Autumn Festival away from home but found lots of drama in Double and Fenny's class.
Come on, it's no crime to gossip. It's us(girls') expertise. XD

Thursday, ate pan mee for lunch. Loved the noodle's texture.
And I heard a really cute thing! A guy asked Fenny if his confession was good. Seriously, I love the way he did. XD
'Hi, can you give me 5minutes so that we get to know each other? If you don't mind, can we go out to lunch sometime?'
I practically smiled and 'awww...' at him! hahaha...
After that, I spend my whole afternoon at KDU's library reading Romeo and Juliet
Because my flu is driving me crazy, decided to go back but end up another hour in KDU's cafeteria. It's super NICE!
Despite being sick, we went for Claypot Chicken Rice. Yums!
After taking my meds, decided to sleep but they dragged me up from bed to play cards XD
Joined later by Arthur, playing 369. Feeling groggy, my brain processed really slow but had a good time nevertheless

FLYDAY! The day I'm going home! ^^ Went to 1Utama bus terminal alone and got myself brunch supplies from Subway
Ordered Breakfast strips & Eggs and Tuna & Eggs. Thumbs up to both! The white coffee(free) was really nice! my first coffee in 2weeks! XD
I spend my whole 4hour journey watching Dance Subaru and 10Promises to My Dog.
I'm really glad that I'm home. Not because I didn't love Kay Elle but I think it's always best to be home

School starts on Monday =.=" don't feel motivated and results coming out on my dad's birthday.
Hope it will be a double happiness then ^^

Till then. You'll heard it first from Serene XoXo