Thursday, September 22, 2011

The Big Eraser

I wished I have a big eraser to erase everything that hurt
I wished I have a big eraser to erase everything that had caused nothing but tears
I wished I have a big eraser to erase everything that cost me a broken heart

But if I do erase all those memories, I'll erase all those happy moments that goes with it as well
And when I do, I'll probably erase what is happening and may be what will happen as well
So, I can only live life as it is

I have learnt my lesson the hard way... Now it's time for me to change
Hold my hands tightly and walk through this transition with me, love
I cannot go on without you

My Habits

It had become a habit... Not having you around me
It's a habit that I neither like nor enjoy
Because I miss you lots... many may think that I'm crazy
when I say I miss the smell of your cologne when we hug
when I say I miss caressing my thumb when we hold hands just to assure myself that you're here... for real
when I say I miss peeking on you when you drive without you noticing

But it's a habit that I think made me stronger
Because I learn not to expect or anticipate... many may think I'm crazy
when I say he's not coming back
when I say he doesn't care
when I say he doesn't need to know
Not because I didn't want you to be part of it... but it's the only way to protect myself


You're a habit that I neither want to change or forget
Cause it feels so much more when we're finally together... once more

Friday, September 16, 2011

With you...

Sitting at the bus stop, I was waiting. Waiting for someone to come pick me up. Though many had offered, neither did I take up the offer. Vehicle of many kinds come and go. Some were average cars while some were saloon cars and others were high-end cars. As they come and go, promises were made, hopes were given, just waiting for me to take their hand and go on a journey with them.

Some people had to get into several cars before settling with one that they were comfortable with while some people had gotten into the right one from the start. When some people chose to cry in leather seat cars, others cry in cars that were nothing fancy but warm.

As I was still waiting at cross roads, a car stopped and offered a ride. It was an old but promising car. Though it was still unsure, I was as well. But instead of getting into another average car that had stopped for me too, I got into the one that made the impression. A simple black Saga. Unsure of where we are heading next, but we made several stops in between because of the doubts.

Though the car did not promise anything real materialistically, nor will it always be by my side, but it made me feel safe. As I caress it to assure myself that this is real, unknowingly, it made me smile silly every now and then.

I’m still unsure where we are heading, but knowing that we’re heading somewhere together, I couldn’t care less. Because I feel safe and warm, just by being in that car. It’s the perfect car that I had been wanting and wishing to have since I was a little girl. Don’t have to be a Mercedes or Bentley, just a simple Saga that can make me feel like I’m the luckiest girl around, is more than I had wished for. Thank you.

So, have you found your perfect car?

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

What and If...

What and If are two powerful words... What if... What if...

What if I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth?
What if my parents didn't have time for me when I was young?
What if I attended boarding school?
What if I enrolled in Modern Literature and Creative Writing in London?
What if I met people that are totally different?

I bet these are some questions you will ask yourself with the constant 'what if...'
The wishes and regrets that you'll come to ask and realize as you grow
Just because you want and believe you can do better if situations are different
But why ponder and frown on things you know you cannot change
The painful truth of the real reality and perceptual reality
The bittersweet life you live now, molds a stronger you to face bigger challenges in the future

Saturday, August 27, 2011

More than just a pretty face

Finally got my first tattoo! Love it to bits! ❤
After being indecisive for half and hour or so, finally decided on a butterfly!

Been excited about this for the past month already!
Cause I really wanted to get inked but was skeptical about it
Now that I've done it... I'm all smiles! =D
No regrets!
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Got his initials inked as well =)

oh, before you all get too serious, it's an air brush tattoo! xD
so it's a temporary one... but still made me feel good!

XoXo
Serene

Friday, August 26, 2011

I wish I may I wish I might, have the wish I wish tonight ♥

A very delayed post cause couldn't get photos from the 'photographers' =P
Too lazy to write... so let the photos do the talking




Love the pressies they got me! especially the scrapbook! ♥
Saw photos that I don't even remember I had! Good old memories =)
and they got me something I've been delaying for 3years to get! contacts!
I have no idea when I'll be wearing them >.<"
Thank you me dearest sayangs for all the effort that had been put into these

Me love you all ♥
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Epic Conversation

XiYen: Moreen said dating is something very boring
Annshyen: SHUT UP!
Us: LOL!

Friday, August 19, 2011

Will you still be the man who I hold onto when my hands wrinkle? Will I still be the woman you love when you grow old?

Walking under the hot sun with only one umbrella in his hand, he shed it unto his partner. Slowly pacing through the long road as fast cars past, never letting go of each other’s hand. Grey hair, wrinkled hand, watching each step that they take.

Going on movie dates, watching movies made by youngsters these days, still the never ending excitement. As they held onto one another, the elderly woman rests her head on his shoulder. They enjoyed the movie.

Dining at the kopitiam near by their house, only the two of them. Feasting on 2 dishes and a bowl of soup, yet they chit-chat away happily. Enjoying each others’ company.

There’s no need to drive a car, live lavishly and feast on the finest when you are doing all that with the man you love. The wrinkled annoying old man that was once a handsome ambitious man you love. This is the lifetime of love you want to chase after.