Somewhere Like This

WongFu released a new short today. It's about a couple who meets again after being separated after so long because the girl is going off for her studies. It's about finding the feeling that was once lost/ slowly faded away/ forgotten.

Recently, love and I had been meeting quite often, once a month. Some of you may think that how can once a month be classified as 'often'. Well, for the past two years of our relationship, we've only been meeting once every three/four months. Seeing how clingy I can get these couple of months, I wondered how did I ever get through 2 whole years by just meeting occasionally. But the feeling that I get every time we meet, it's something I can never be able to describe. The joy, the butterflies, the fluttering hearts, all that, it's something I can never forget. I asked love how did we survived not meeting each other after so many months for the past years when we now couldn't be away from one another. He said that we had love each other more through out the years so now, we couldn't bare being away from the other. I smiled.

I couldn't imagine myself when love is back for good.

My friends seems admire my patience of being away from the one we love for so long and sometimes, not talking with him for days. I guess you can say that it's a habit? Well, I don't deny that at times I longed to be in his arms but when I know that I can't, I try to fill myself with activities of my own. Watching dramas, reading novels and going out with my friends. It keeps me going, a  way of not loosing myself by still having 'me time'. Love gets his by going out drinking with his friends, so do I. I used to wait every single day for his call or for him to start video calling me on MSN. When I realised that I slowly losing myself from society, I started going out again with my friends. Now, I guess I wait less and love myself more in a way.

However, I thank my friends a lot for being there for me. I know that I am not the nicest friend you have but I appreciate every thing that you do for me. <3 div="">

I love you *muacks* 

Somewhere Like This

Working Life

Started work right after returning, people ask why I am in such a rush to get a job?

Well it's a competition every where you go. So I want to secure myself with a job first then slowly discover what the world has to offer.

Just started working in a small engineering firm. I am lonely and stressed because of this job, but I cannot deny that I learnt quite a lot in these few months.

I helped my boss set up the Penang branch company, started designing and creating website. Can not get any crazier. I know nothing about designing, what more creating a website! I was pushed to the edge because I am not familiar with designing. I finally gave in and called up a couple of friends to help me with it.

I am never more grateful when I started class with them. They are an eye opener! They took time out of their busy schedule to help teach me. They made my job so much easier! I struggled for one month to create a very simple design and do the linking!! 

I feel upset because my boss doesn't seem to understand when I say I am not from a designing and IT background and I have to learn everything from scratch! I know that I am rather slow but I have to go through videos after videos and reading after reading!! And to know all the codes to create the website is even worse! When I told my boss that I couldn't finish my work in time, he doesn't seem happy. 

He ask the IT guy to assist me, how is this helping when he ask me to create everything again using Photoshop, that I have to learn from scratch again!

I was challenged to the edge and finally made that phone call to ask some friends to help me. And, they really helped me lots! Encouragement from friends and love is the only thing that kept me going on this long.

When I finally send in my designs and work, I am never more proud of myself. Though they ask for a whole lot of changes, I just did. I feel more relieve that I manage to perform in my work.

After everything is done, I reflected on myself and found out that I complain too much and work too little. I am going to learn perseverance and patience to help make me a better and stronger person. 

Thank you for all the love and support =)

Summary of 2012

2012 seemed like a hell of a ride. The ups and downs, the challenges and thrills and definitely, another test from God.

1) Meeting love's parents was nerves!! All butterflies... The exact emotions that I felt before sitting for an exam, the exact emotions that I felt when we first went on a date

2) Meeting YouTube stars that had brought me and love together! WONG FU 4 LYFE!! Not to mention me got hugs from two hotties, Philip Wang and Wesley Chan, though Ted Fu wasn't there, this gave me a good reason to go meet them again in their next Asia Tour! <3 p="p">
3) Getting into one of the biggest fight with love that left a deep ugly scar but I'm glad we both gave each other a second chance. Through this as well, I finally burst. I had never pour feelings into words before and after this, it made me so. Either I change from bad to worst or bad to good, you decide *wink*

4) Going to Singapore for a number of time! Finally got permission to go Singapore alone to meet love! He brought me to places and created memories that will forever be embedded in my heart.

5) Going to Perhentian Island with love and his friends. My first beach holiday!! I am no swimmer but had also wanted a beach holiday! Ironic right? But seriously couldn't care less because I got to go with love! Had my first snorkeling session with love guiding me in his 'home', the sea. Though he got ill during the trip, I'm still happy that I went with him.

6) Saying hello with the land of sexy accent, Britain! Was there for my 3months summer degree program. I am thankful for the opportunity given and the experience was beyond words. I've been lonely, never had trouble with it until I was in Sheffield. Probably the home sick part kicked in, I got miserable. I depended a lot on love because friends were busy with their own stuff. This experience taught me a lot and showed me who my real friends are. Vayshna and PhaikIm showered me with all the love they can give and I can never ask for more. When I was down, they were there for me. Met a bunch of new friends and for the first time, spent most of my time in the library! It was an awesome library experience because Malaysia uni, doesn't provide me so =( Slowly, the feeling of loneliness doesn't feel so bad after getting the hang of the place.

7) First birthday abroad! Without friends and family, it was dull. Having love singing me Happy Birthday, I cried because I really wished he was here and he was the only one who sang me birthday song that day. Then, receiving great love from Vayshna all the way from Penang, really made me teared. Was having a tough time and her card really cheered me up.

8) Exploring places I have never thought of going. Been to Lisbon, Barcelona, Santorini, Athens, Rome, Pisa, Venice, Zurich, Berlin, Paris and London., Got into a big fight with fellow backpackers and our relationship turned sour. I cannot say that it was a great holiday, but I can say it was a great experience. I still wish to go back to these beautiful places one day with love. Because nothing is ever enough.

9) Finding a job. Been on job hunting even from the start of my Europe trip. Landed on a job that I was skeptical about. But my friends and love have been encouraging me and I was happy to have landed on this job.

2012 had put a test on my relationship with friends and love, it was tough but I'm glad I made it through with family. I hope 2013 will bring me wisdom and more learning experience, to be a stronger individual and achieving more.

Thank you, 2012

너를 실망해서 미안 해요, 너를 상처해서 미안 해요, 내 사랑

Because our happy and good times keep passing me by,

Because I feel like I will regret this till I die,
I have something to tell you right now

I still love you, I love you
Though I don’t know anything else, I know I want you

My tears are not stopping
I know I shouldn’t cry already but why do I keep crying?
My heart toward you acts however it wants
So it keeps sending me to you

I still love you, I love you
Though I don’t know anything else, I know I want you

Missing You

I see you
The one person in my heart I see you, who I longed for so much
Even if the tip of my heart hurts like this
Even if the tip of my hands tremble like this I can only think of you
The person I miss like crazy
The words I want to hear from you like crazy I love you, I love you - where are you?
The person I long for, who is deeply stuck in my heart
Please tell me that you cherish me
Please don't blankly erase me
Because you're my everything
Those hands that softly touched me
That warm smile toward me
The love that made even tears so beautiful
My heart is still the same I love you... I love you

I've stopped looking for boyfriend material kind of guy

Cause I've found the husband material kind of guy

I sincerely hoped you are the one for me

Of Lochness, Kilt and Pipebag!

A long planned trip where my friends and I drove up to Scotland! 3 cars, 15 people, 8 hours (due to many toilet breaks). Took off around 7pm after class on a Thursday, packed with snacks and my baby pillow =P

First destination was to Edinburgh where we freshen up (just washing our face) and slept in our car for the night! We had a pit stop at Tesco Extra which was 24hours, did some food shopping, toilet break, washing up and of course, sleep! Yes! We slept there in our car for about 3 hours when we were abruptly woken up by police officers on patrol claiming that it's against the law to sleep not under a roof. Basically, we have 3 guys with their sleeping bags, sleeping on the tar road next to our cars cause their long legs don't allow comfortable sleeping in the car. But once we explained our situation, they understood and asked us to enjoy our trip. Now, that explains my post the other day doesn't it? *wink* We took a drive to town where we had our breakfast and normal tourist adrenaline where we took photos of everything and be fascinated with the kilt business everywhere we go! and no it's not cheap @_@

Edinburgh: Yes! I was there are Elephant House! Didn't get to dine in cause they couldn't serve 15 people at once and I was at Portobello Beach =D

After exploring Edinburgh for half a day, we continued our journey to Inverness, a small town where the city center is just a 5min walk away from our student hostel! We visit the famous Dewar's Whiskey factory where you can smell whiskey right when you open the car door. No joke! It was a great learning experience on how Dewar family developed their whiskey business and how whiskey was produced. We even got a free whiskey tasting session at the end of the tour! How aWESome! but of course, I didn't take much. Just a sip and my face was burning! but it's certainly nice =D had our tea break at the garden at Dewar's before we headed down.

 

Inverness: At some castle near our hostel =P and of course the famous Dewar's Whiskey Factory! That big bottle cost only 90pounds! Okay, let's be real, if we don't convert, it's pretty cheap don't you think?

Next, we were headed to Isle of Skye! It's nothing much but the view was simply breath-taking! Beautiful mountains, seas and animals of the nature along the way. Of course we paid Nessie a visit on our drive down =D This time, our hostel was located near the seaside! We were greeted by the sound of waves and wind upon arrival. Another pit stop to Tesco extra for our BBQ supplies that night. I love how BIG it is! You find so many things you couldn't in the tesco here! =( BOO! My friends cooked ABC soup and Apple Honey water for us to warm our body up before the BBQ! Had my first BBQ marshmallow! yummy to the max! I didn't enjoy the BBQ much as I was falling sick then, heaty body from lack of water and late night sleeps.

 Lochness: Paid a visit to Nessie at Lochness Lake... how can you not? =)

Isle of Skye: At Saucy Mary's Lodge... See the bridge? We crossed that to the island

 Isle of Skye: At the top of the hill, where I saw Aries, the ram =D and of course beautiful greens 

Last destination before we head back to our lovely Sheffield was Glassgow! A town with big buildings but not enough to be called a city. We caught a glimpse of double rainbow on our drive to Glassgow! I was so excited as I had not felt so close to a rainbow before and seeing it so clear and near to me! and it's a double rainbow! I could really feel leprechaun jingling their pot of gold at me *winks* It was rather late when we arrived Glassgow so we headed to yet another Tesco extra for dinner supplies. Had prepacked spaghetti! It was delicious! And I got bottle Starbucks coffee for only 1 pound each! Taste just as good as ones you get off the counter of Starbucks cafe. No lie. We went for sight seeing as usual the next morning where we visited town. It was a great learning experience at the Kevingrove Art Gallery. A lot of history and information at that gallery.

On the way to Glasgow: Did you spot the double rainbow? Beautiful isn't it? =)

Glasgow: A very warm and cozy hostel, it's a house made into a hotel... really home like; And meet Mr. Scottish Bear =)

And the best of this whole trip was MALAYSIAN FOOD!! We paid a visit to Rumours Kopitiam, it was splendid! The food was worth every cent we paid. I dare to say that it's even better than what I taste back in Penang! No joke! I ordered Indian style fried noodles, while others ordered Curry Mee, Char Hor Fun, Nasi Rendang Ayam, Claypot Tauhu with rice, Char Koay Teow, Salted fish fried rice, and Tai Lok Mien. Delicious beyond words! We really felt closer to home that day. I had iced YinYang and it tasted really good. Basically, I just enjoyed my food... We went for shopping session and off we go home!

We were greeted by the beautiful night view of Sheffield and shone by Mr.Moon who was shining brightly in the dark night, accompanied by shining stars. Beautiful.

Sheffield: See the beautiful night sky... Do you hear Jacob turning? Teehee...

An inside joke we had, was the car I was in was the ONLY car without a GPS but we are the car with iPhones and smartphones that had safely direct the way to 3 of the cities we've been to! How funny when the other 2 cars who had GPS couldn't find the way. All hail technology!

Jjang!! A little treat for you guys! Scottish men in Kilt! The guy on the right really aged with grace...

Till then,
Serene

Up and About

Hey guys! Sorry for the hiatus~ It's not that I've been busy but I've been LAZY! I've been going to places as you can see on my Facebook (didn't plan to upload them but my mum have been pestering dad to show her my photos but I didn't so now I did). So far, been to York, Whitby, Manchester, Liverpool, Leeds, Cheshire Oak(a designer outlet mall), and will be going to Cambridge this weekend! Since I'm not entitle to be a member of Cambridge University, taking a photo there and pretend that I am is already a thrill to me *muka tak tahu malu* The following weekend, my friends and I are driving up to Scotland! Yes, the land of Lochness and pipebag! If I'm lucky, I may get the chance to see her! Beautiful creature of the mystic times =D

 As much as I love being here, I still do miss home. A house is not a home. I realize this now. But I am thankful to my parents that I'm able to be here. Helping me get a degree and letting me explore the other part of the world. I enjoyed myself so much that I wish you are here with me (whoever that's reading this). I want to be able to share this beautiful place and experience with you. One of the best experience was to be part of the Olympics Torch Relay! 3hours or more wait was a kill but when the torch bearer jog by us, it's nothing but proud. Once in a lifetime opportunity.

My friends and I have been cooking together a lot these days. Almost every weekend, setting up themes on what to cook to represent home. So far, we had steamboat(awfully good for the chilly weather here), pan mee, tomyam bihun, and roasted pork! YES! We feel very much at 'home' with these food. The fact that I'm missing the dumpling and moon cake festival, I think about home a lot. Yes, these are the littlest things that I had took granted off. We crave for a lot of food here. Nasi lemak, roti canai, char koay teow, mamak food(Ali!), fish slice soup noodles and so on. Don't get me wrong. I do enjoy the fish and chips, kebabs and burgers here as these are real fish and burger patties (much less processed), but it will never taste like 'home'.

Scenery here are breath-taking. Green fields and farms and beautiful flowers everywhere! While you pay RM5 for a stalk of rose, I pick them up from the side walk. No joke. What seems like romance and luxury flowers back home, it's found every where by the road or in Tesco! There are roses and daisies at the court yard of my hostel. And, we can take a bus ride or 20min walk from here to get to the nearest farms! We see flocks of sheep, cows and horses! It's like a dream come true to me because I really want to meet a horse and when I did, I couldn't hide the joy! And as you can see from my photos, I met alpacas! They are really soft and fluffy! Took me a lot of trouble chasing them to get a decent photo so appreciate it! =P This is the beautiful life.

Though I may be surrounded by many people but I still feel alone. I miss you =(

Love from Sheffeld,
Serener