Thursday, September 22, 2011

The Big Eraser

I wished I have a big eraser to erase everything that hurt
I wished I have a big eraser to erase everything that had caused nothing but tears
I wished I have a big eraser to erase everything that cost me a broken heart

But if I do erase all those memories, I'll erase all those happy moments that goes with it as well
And when I do, I'll probably erase what is happening and may be what will happen as well
So, I can only live life as it is

I have learnt my lesson the hard way... Now it's time for me to change
Hold my hands tightly and walk through this transition with me, love
I cannot go on without you

My Habits

It had become a habit... Not having you around me
It's a habit that I neither like nor enjoy
Because I miss you lots... many may think that I'm crazy
when I say I miss the smell of your cologne when we hug
when I say I miss caressing my thumb when we hold hands just to assure myself that you're here... for real
when I say I miss peeking on you when you drive without you noticing

But it's a habit that I think made me stronger
Because I learn not to expect or anticipate... many may think I'm crazy
when I say he's not coming back
when I say he doesn't care
when I say he doesn't need to know
Not because I didn't want you to be part of it... but it's the only way to protect myself


You're a habit that I neither want to change or forget
Cause it feels so much more when we're finally together... once more

Friday, September 16, 2011

With you...

Sitting at the bus stop, I was waiting. Waiting for someone to come pick me up. Though many had offered, neither did I take up the offer. Vehicle of many kinds come and go. Some were average cars while some were saloon cars and others were high-end cars. As they come and go, promises were made, hopes were given, just waiting for me to take their hand and go on a journey with them.

Some people had to get into several cars before settling with one that they were comfortable with while some people had gotten into the right one from the start. When some people chose to cry in leather seat cars, others cry in cars that were nothing fancy but warm.

As I was still waiting at cross roads, a car stopped and offered a ride. It was an old but promising car. Though it was still unsure, I was as well. But instead of getting into another average car that had stopped for me too, I got into the one that made the impression. A simple black Saga. Unsure of where we are heading next, but we made several stops in between because of the doubts.

Though the car did not promise anything real materialistically, nor will it always be by my side, but it made me feel safe. As I caress it to assure myself that this is real, unknowingly, it made me smile silly every now and then.

I’m still unsure where we are heading, but knowing that we’re heading somewhere together, I couldn’t care less. Because I feel safe and warm, just by being in that car. It’s the perfect car that I had been wanting and wishing to have since I was a little girl. Don’t have to be a Mercedes or Bentley, just a simple Saga that can make me feel like I’m the luckiest girl around, is more than I had wished for. Thank you.

So, have you found your perfect car?