The Road Taken

It's really hard to make a decision when you're too tired to hold on and too in love to let go... but I chose to stay so please make it worth

I love writing

Some people wonder why others prefer writing letters than just picking up the phone and talk. I love writing, not because I am good at it but because I can. I grew up being judge by people that I'm close to (family) because of the words that comes out of my mouth. So, I chose to remain silent and they said that I was rude. So tell me, how to speak more than write.

I had never let people know of how I really felt. I only tell parts of the story but never the whole. Even if I'm upset or angry, I chose to hide myself in the corner and cry out every thing that I had bottled up. Eventually building up a wall around me, barely letting anyone in.

I'd resorted to writing. I learnt to express more of myself through words I imprint on random papers and blogs. What I wrote, even if its just tangled lines, that was how I felt at that moment. People think that they know me so well that even if I don't talk, they'll be able to decipher me. But they'll never really know what's going in my head and how my heart felt. Only this little piece of paper knows. My dirty little secret. Even I'm scared of being too happy. For fear all those will be taken away from me, for fear it wouldn't last. All because I am afraid of being judge.

I'm really amazed by how people can carelessly talk without weighing the consequences when they do. But, who am I to judge them? Probably like me, talking is a way of expressing themselves. And this, is how I express myself. Writing.

Of unwritten past, unspoken words... This is me

A smile can hide so many pains, a tear can show so many feelings

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Is it weird?

Is it weird? For my stomach butterflies whenever we meet
Is it strange? For my heart flutters whenever we hug and kiss
Is it obvious? For he is the one I've been dreaming about

A guy who sings to the Sound of Music with me
A guy who cares for me far more than I imagined
A guy who can make me say things that I only think of
A guy who can make me cry by being so honest with me

Is it weird? To be in love with him...

사랑해

I love you, I love you,I love you no matter how many times say it
You... don’t know how I feel

I remember the first time I met you
I remember the first time we talked
I remember the first time we went out
I didn't know that I like you until that one night, I was crying and all I could think about was you
My heart that beats as if it’s about to explode, tells me that I like you, I love you
Even if I close both my eyes and cover both my ears, my heart can find the place where you are

My love... I love you

Of love, love and love

Went on my first event with love... WongFu Weekend!! Met Phil and Wes for the first time! =)
The best of it all, hugging them!! KYAA!!!! *nicegirlalert*
Got to know Sanna and her sisters! <3 though one of them wasn't much of a fan but after the WongFu 4 LYFE, managed to brainwash her into a nice girl! Power of WONG FU! =P Flew for the first time with love to Singapore =) had a blast! Love had been extremely nice and gave me all the attention I can get Been to malls after malls after malls! my life in Singapore is basically MALLS! The only money I spent most was on food and EZ Link card xD all the travel and yummy food But I had to flew back to KL earlier than planned for briefing at school >.<"
Before going back, I left post it(s) in his room =) was suppose to do it on his birthday but since I couldn't be there then, had it done earlier
Glad that he found the surprise I had installed for him =) a much smaller scaled than planned cause was rushing back so didn't get to do what I wanted to

A few days upon my return to Penang, love called and asked if I want to go over again, without doubts YES!
Flew a day after his birthday(Valentines) alone! My first time traveling 'abroad' alone... Just me, luggage and lots of love
Stayed a week or so with love, cousins and kitties! =D All I received from the whole week of stay was love, love and more love!
Love had been trying to finish work early so he can come home and accompany me for the night
Met his friends and Evelyn (finally!) during this trip and spent quality time together
I miss being in the his company and I guess it's true when people say distance makes the heart goes fonder
I can't wait to meet him again <3

One thing that I love bout Singapore is the aWESome bookstores and stationery shop! Penang must have more of these! And of course better public transportation =D Everything is within walking distance and travelling isn't much of a fuss with buses and trains!

Feeling bad though cause he had to miss golf with his colleagues/boss and left work earlier than usual for me
I think his bosses are glad that I'm finally back in the island xD

Best Memory of 2011

Meeting you is one of the best memory I could ever ask for in 2011. Right when I least expected it, you walked through the wall I built effortlessly. Spending 2011 with you, though in long distance, I'm always thankful that you always stayed by my side.

A very Merry Christmas to You

It's the time of the year again! To spread love and joy of giving! ^^
I love listening to Christmas songs, bring back lots of memories where my family be driving home from Penang every weekend listening to them in the car
I basically grew up listening to oldies and learn to love music and singing in the car

Last year, in November, I took the same photo and at the same place
Christmas was drawing near and my friends and I went to Straits Quay for lunch
This year is no exception... the same tree at the same place but with different people
Nevertheless, I love the people I'm with because they're always there when I needed them most, a shoulder I can cry on and to share the joy and love
Thank you, dearies... I'll always remember to thank God for another tomorrow and great family and friends, feeling blessed =D




The fact that Christmas is my all time favourite festive season, I decided to make a cover
Chestnut Roasting On A Open Fire, a song I fell in love the instant I heard it!
Do check out Jayesslee and David Choi's cover of this song! So much better than mine